It's Monday 15/9 about 10 days till my last day in my current company. I'm still excited that I'm finally going to have a "India" stamp on my passport this coming 27/9.
It's Monday morning, I don't have my mobile phone with me, think I left it inside sayang car. Don't care either cos my eyes still feel like sleeping.
It was a busy weekend starting off with yoga on Sat morning, till running off to K with the gals, then jam through jln kewajipan to PutraHeights to see coursemate's 2weeks-old baby, then getting home to change & adjourn to Vihara for Bodhi Puja bringing along 2 of my Buddhist Indon cllg... who were very excited over visiting my grandma after Puja.
Sat night with my Indon friends also very wuliow.... never thought I'd ever comment anything about them... but they're just "different" not in a good nor bad way. Just quite draining for me to keep up to their 'obidience' towards 'old people'. They insisted on buying mooncake for my grandma... on the way to Vihara, at Paramount, the only lantern shop I know, was selling mooncake -- there.
"Oh I don't know if these are good you know, you have to buy something good for your grandma!"
Fine so what is GOOD mooncake?
"I heard of Tai Thong?"
OK, what about this Overseas brand, also famous right... just like Tai Thong another restaurant chain.
"But I've not heard of Overseas before, don't know if it is good, it won't be good if you buy something not good for your grandma."
Practising my patience, we went to temple first... finish Puja... went back to PJ area... I thought about Giant supermarket... surely got a variety of mooncake to choose.
"Supermarket?! You know how low quality are the mooncakes in supermarket?"
Heelo?!?! This cannot that cannot... must purposely drive to TaiThong to get the mooncake for you meh... Giant is on the way to my grandma house mah... and somemore you don't know what brand of mooncake my grandma likes...
Anyway yadayada... we finally reached my grandma hse for super late dinner. I was so hungry. There both of them so obidiently chatting happily with my grandma in hokkien, their mother tongue.
They showed me good example of how we must respect old people and treat old people with utmost respect. Money cannot compare with 'grandma' (since I was telling them buying mooncakes is actually very expensive).
But they also made me pusing here pusing there... send them here send them there... kept justifying about the things to buy... for my grandma. Siggh... that's my grandma, who actually pampers her own grandchildren... if my grandma don't eat, the food goes to her grandchildren -- my cousins & me, anyway! (They just don't get it...)
Sunday, another crazy day :
- 7.30am woke up get ready to Vihara
- 8.30am get all the goodies from Vn hse to upload to bus
- 9.30am 7 busses departed to FRIM
- 10.30am start to hide all the 'treasure' for the kids to hunt later
- 11.00am the sun was shining sooooooooooooooooo brightly, it's very very hot for all of us to be running about at the open field. At one point, I was just repeatedly throwing-catching ball with one tiny boy who couldn't fit in with the taller boys in monkey-catch-ball game.
- 12.00pm everybody cannot tahan the heat, all went to miserable waterfall with very little water to play.
After lunch, treasure hunt, packing... all 7 buses went back to Vihara again... sayang was waiting for me already... to bring me to Melaka!
His friend's wedding... during the whole dinner, my eyes were so droopy, while enjoying a lil playing tricks with my dlsr, I was also feeling sooooooooo tired. The whole journey back to KL from melaka was asleep in the car.
Next weekend another crazy spree... with whole day wedding thingy at Melaka (again?!).
Sometimes you wonder if having many friends is such a good idea! *Doh*
Monday, September 15, 2008
Friday, September 12, 2008
Will righteousness prevail?
What is happening with the government? Do you all really believe that when you do good, you will get good return? A part of me feels that all the sandiwara happening now is very related to the DSAI & pakatan rakyat seriousness/possibility in accomplishing the take over... and there's soooo much for BN rich politicians to lose. I think now the situation is like a battle of btwn the virtuous vs the corrupt... who will win? Do you have faith in Malaysia overcoming righteousness?
(im not saying anwar is holy or nik aziz is pure or LKS is heavenly.... I just know that they're not very rich and they don't become politicians for you-know-what reason)
Why would a poor fella wanna risk everything to be in jail?
Why would another fella wanna go all out to put another poor fella in jail without trial?
Why would any (ethical) foreign investors wanna invest in Malaysia if they know Malaysia can put somebody in jail without trial?
Is it really so hard to turn from bad to good? What does it take to challenge / embrace real positive change?
(im not saying anwar is holy or nik aziz is pure or LKS is heavenly.... I just know that they're not very rich and they don't become politicians for you-know-what reason)
Why would a poor fella wanna risk everything to be in jail?
Why would another fella wanna go all out to put another poor fella in jail without trial?
Why would any (ethical) foreign investors wanna invest in Malaysia if they know Malaysia can put somebody in jail without trial?
Is it really so hard to turn from bad to good? What does it take to challenge / embrace real positive change?
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
"ZAIA"
Of all the usual stuff that you can expect from my 2nd Hong Kong & Macao trip, there is one thing that I almost forgot to blog about! I must not forget that munyee's abang belanja me to watch this fantastic "show" I've ever seen in my life -- Cirque du Soleil. And the first ever show to be staged in Asia at none other the Venetian Macao with the largest casino in the world!
Not that I'm proud of being at Asia's biggest gambling city (I really didn't feel any spiritual energy here)... but I have to blog about this "ZAIA" Cirque du Soleil that, before this I was so jakun... I've never heard of it!
What circus? What broadway musical? What umbrella flying & cycling in the air? Hmm... ro begin with, I'm not a circus person and I don't understand clown (not scared) just look at clown like -- Doh.
But I'm still overwhelmed by the super yau yeng innovation & engineering that a 'stage' could be built with. The big globe suspending from the high ceiling can motion front and back... the feature-girl can swing to all directions while hanging in the air... the swift transformation of the stage from one scene to another... artistic digital visuals as the backdrop...
Just technically speaking -- I'm bought. Though abit paiseh I did doze off in the middle of some parts when the artistes were just circling or rotating or jumping endlessly.
Click here for photos. You must click here to view the video clip to get a feel of what I'm trying to describe.Other than this extravagant expensive show, I didn't see much the hotel... was rushing through one of the lobby to another wing of the lobby... passed through the casino floor which was really... supremely spacious. I wonder where all the gamblers came from?
When I say no spiritual energy... I'm trying to mean that the greed energy is very strong for the whole city, it has diluted spirituality / religious practises (if there's any).
Friday, September 05, 2008
Career & Trip in 1 story
Today.. back to office after 5days in HK-Macao... while my teamlead is still on leave... I tender my resignation letter to the manager in line. During lunch time, quickly hop on the lrt to jamek to return offer letter to the bank-company duly signed. Ya will be joining a bank IT division probably supporting similar stuff... which I'm actually quite uncertain what it's all about. The interviewer was non-technical manager... and I'm to replace another girl who left. And I wonder if there's gonna be anybody to handover to me if the previous staff already left! The non-technical manager would probably expect to pick up everything by myself eh?! What more... she's looking for a thinker not just a doer!
Anyway, shall not let my mind wonder off too far... just like what I read about current Malaysian political front -- there's no uncertainty only opportunity. Nobody know for sure if DSAI will be the next PM, everybody just wish that something good will come out of the whole situation. Just like my job / career, nobody will know if new company will be good for my future... just expect the least, and hope for the best!
So now what about my HK trip?! Why people seem to like to ask this question. Maybe I'll be more excited if I came back from Europe or volunteering for beijing olympics... somehow, I'm just thankful and glad to be back home to Malaysia.
It was my 2nd trip to HK... which I was hesitating to go in the first place... because I've ALREADY backpacked travel HK-macao before 2 years old during xmas season. What could top that? I've come to acknowledge that travelling during summer / or extremely hot weather is a NO NO! In my 1st trip to HK-macao, I was freezing... in this trip, I was sweating like mad! The heat just took away half of the fun of sight-seeing / walking.
And my legs are itching.... got lotsa red spots like alergy or rashes, and sometimes I couldn't stop scratching it... already got ugly legs now tambah lagi red polka dots... no need to wear skirt liow. Lagi DnD besok... Might be due to the trip to Lantau island, Tai-O fishing village... I saw some tiny insects resting on my legs and I didn't bother to shoo it away. So hot and tired, I was trying to fan myself more than be bothered why the legs are itchy.
Abang stayed in this really fancy high-rise condo on the HK island by the sea side... the balcony overlooking the old airport and other side of HK. Pretty amazing sight from high up 69th floor but not inspiring enough... that I feel like I miss Malaysia!!!
I miss the roticanai & dal... the thosai and milo... they don't have my basic favourite food?! No MILO?! No nasi lemak.. no roti canai.. no sambal... eat dimsum without sauce... I've had enuff of wonton-mee with wonton full of prawns that I have no choice but to swallow it. Else if I dig out all the prawn then dunno eat what. The food is soooo not for me.
Each time we ordered lunch set which comes with a drink, the lansi-waitress will ask if you want coffee or nai-cha (milk tea), I always wanted to say "teh-o"... but I end up confusing her whenever I ask for "do u have anything without milk?!" Brrrrrrr..... ok "ice lemon tea" then. I know I shouldn't drink too much ice-lemon tea but that's the only drink I know how to say in cantonese which I will drink... not coffee not milk tea... and they got no MILO :( Menu are mostly in traditional chinese text which i could hardly make sense off... very pathetic for me coming from Chinese school but that's a fact, I don't understand the menu and they don't care to explain nicely.. or worst, they tend to sound insulting when you can't read.
One lady even say "don't bother reading that, that's in English, u won't know anyway"... *roll eye*
How about shopping? Well i went back to the same ESPRIT outlet store at Tsim Sha Tsui, bringing along the other travel mates. Cos tat's exactly where I went to for major shopping the last trip. Cos it's really tiring bargaining at the Ladies-Street, esp with that sweaty body. Atleast at the aircon big story, there's fitting room! You get to try and try and try and choose from so many ESPRIT apparels... its more rewarding I guess. Later we found out there's more of these 'outlet' stores at Lantau Island... but still not cheap lah... imagine outlets for DKNY, CK, AX, NIKE, Laura Ashley... 70% discount for a HK$5000 LV bag also pengsan neh!
Travelling abroad always make me look back home and appreciate the country that is Malaysia! Maybe can say... once a Malaysian, always a Malaysian?
Sayang bought me chinesy qibao blouse, purple-white colour.. I showed to mom, she said "you buy pyjama?"
Anyway, shall not let my mind wonder off too far... just like what I read about current Malaysian political front -- there's no uncertainty only opportunity. Nobody know for sure if DSAI will be the next PM, everybody just wish that something good will come out of the whole situation. Just like my job / career, nobody will know if new company will be good for my future... just expect the least, and hope for the best!
So now what about my HK trip?! Why people seem to like to ask this question. Maybe I'll be more excited if I came back from Europe or volunteering for beijing olympics... somehow, I'm just thankful and glad to be back home to Malaysia.
It was my 2nd trip to HK... which I was hesitating to go in the first place... because I've ALREADY backpacked travel HK-macao before 2 years old during xmas season. What could top that? I've come to acknowledge that travelling during summer / or extremely hot weather is a NO NO! In my 1st trip to HK-macao, I was freezing... in this trip, I was sweating like mad! The heat just took away half of the fun of sight-seeing / walking.
And my legs are itching.... got lotsa red spots like alergy or rashes, and sometimes I couldn't stop scratching it... already got ugly legs now tambah lagi red polka dots... no need to wear skirt liow. Lagi DnD besok... Might be due to the trip to Lantau island, Tai-O fishing village... I saw some tiny insects resting on my legs and I didn't bother to shoo it away. So hot and tired, I was trying to fan myself more than be bothered why the legs are itchy.
Abang stayed in this really fancy high-rise condo on the HK island by the sea side... the balcony overlooking the old airport and other side of HK. Pretty amazing sight from high up 69th floor but not inspiring enough... that I feel like I miss Malaysia!!!
I miss the roticanai & dal... the thosai and milo... they don't have my basic favourite food?! No MILO?! No nasi lemak.. no roti canai.. no sambal... eat dimsum without sauce... I've had enuff of wonton-mee with wonton full of prawns that I have no choice but to swallow it. Else if I dig out all the prawn then dunno eat what. The food is soooo not for me.
Each time we ordered lunch set which comes with a drink, the lansi-waitress will ask if you want coffee or nai-cha (milk tea), I always wanted to say "teh-o"... but I end up confusing her whenever I ask for "do u have anything without milk?!" Brrrrrrr..... ok "ice lemon tea" then. I know I shouldn't drink too much ice-lemon tea but that's the only drink I know how to say in cantonese which I will drink... not coffee not milk tea... and they got no MILO :( Menu are mostly in traditional chinese text which i could hardly make sense off... very pathetic for me coming from Chinese school but that's a fact, I don't understand the menu and they don't care to explain nicely.. or worst, they tend to sound insulting when you can't read.
One lady even say "don't bother reading that, that's in English, u won't know anyway"... *roll eye*
How about shopping? Well i went back to the same ESPRIT outlet store at Tsim Sha Tsui, bringing along the other travel mates. Cos tat's exactly where I went to for major shopping the last trip. Cos it's really tiring bargaining at the Ladies-Street, esp with that sweaty body. Atleast at the aircon big story, there's fitting room! You get to try and try and try and choose from so many ESPRIT apparels... its more rewarding I guess. Later we found out there's more of these 'outlet' stores at Lantau Island... but still not cheap lah... imagine outlets for DKNY, CK, AX, NIKE, Laura Ashley... 70% discount for a HK$5000 LV bag also pengsan neh!
Travelling abroad always make me look back home and appreciate the country that is Malaysia! Maybe can say... once a Malaysian, always a Malaysian?
Sayang bought me chinesy qibao blouse, purple-white colour.. I showed to mom, she said "you buy pyjama?"
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Me and my big mouth...
Maybe there's certain things that I really shouldn't say it out loud, at that instant when I'm saying it, it didn't ever cross my mind that I shouldn't say it. I have to admit this is the "E" type of me.
(...yes stereotyping myself is what I'm really good at and enjoy doing...)
There is a big reason why this blog is 'private' and not for work-cllg to read... because corporate world doesn't really match well with my social/personal life.
Right now all I wanna rant about is me being so "E" to automatically reveal to teammate that I got the bank job offer, tho we're both hush hush about it. Smart fella he ask me for the bank interviewer contact... he took the liberty to email and even call up my future boss to arrange for an interview!
Here I thought I could escape from the company... well and also the people... but this cannot be happening!!! I cannot imagine if he really got the SAME job as me in the SAME bank doing the SAME thing! Gosshh....
Actually he's definitely uninspiring... one of the worst worker you can ever find, but I cannot tell him straight that I think he should buck up. He's already getting salt from the management, by getting 0% increment... can you imagine how 'bad' is his performance? Well good thing is, it'll make me look better than him... but I'd rather work with somebody like smarter / more hardworking / better attitude / more motivated at work!
I'm not a person who will intentionally take advantage of people, but its sooooo easy for me to screw him. He arrives in office >8.30am, go home <5.30pm, go out for lunch longer than me - consistantly. And he's terrible at pretending to be a good worker, by taking a nap at 10am... Yes he can just pull his chair near to the desk, laptop screen lowered, as if as he's looking very closely at the monitor, but his eyes are closed. I sit beside him i know lah! What you want me to do? Wake him up? Or become like the kpc to private msg the big boss?
This cannot happen!!! Now I only wish that he don't sabo me... cos I haven't get the LO yet. It didn't occur to me that he'll ever sabo me, his only naive wish is that we both resign together. Yes I jump he jump. I hate that phrase.
My dad just gave me a scare when I told him abt this... cos dad kutuk me for being so stupid to always dunno how to keep my mouth shut. Deep inside I know my cllg will not harm me... but I cannot control what's beyond my control.
Anyway.. I will keep on sending positive energy towards all beings.. even if its to my current teamlead & managers. They're not harmful... I just hope that things don't get complicated next month when I return from HK.
Nobody at work will be expecting this from me. I'm like playing poker in the office. Question of what happen should there be a counter offer? DOH!!!
(...yes stereotyping myself is what I'm really good at and enjoy doing...)
There is a big reason why this blog is 'private' and not for work-cllg to read... because corporate world doesn't really match well with my social/personal life.
Right now all I wanna rant about is me being so "E" to automatically reveal to teammate that I got the bank job offer, tho we're both hush hush about it. Smart fella he ask me for the bank interviewer contact... he took the liberty to email and even call up my future boss to arrange for an interview!
Here I thought I could escape from the company... well and also the people... but this cannot be happening!!! I cannot imagine if he really got the SAME job as me in the SAME bank doing the SAME thing! Gosshh....
Actually he's definitely uninspiring... one of the worst worker you can ever find, but I cannot tell him straight that I think he should buck up. He's already getting salt from the management, by getting 0% increment... can you imagine how 'bad' is his performance? Well good thing is, it'll make me look better than him... but I'd rather work with somebody like smarter / more hardworking / better attitude / more motivated at work!
I'm not a person who will intentionally take advantage of people, but its sooooo easy for me to screw him. He arrives in office >8.30am, go home <5.30pm, go out for lunch longer than me - consistantly. And he's terrible at pretending to be a good worker, by taking a nap at 10am... Yes he can just pull his chair near to the desk, laptop screen lowered, as if as he's looking very closely at the monitor, but his eyes are closed. I sit beside him i know lah! What you want me to do? Wake him up? Or become like the kpc to private msg the big boss?
This cannot happen!!! Now I only wish that he don't sabo me... cos I haven't get the LO yet. It didn't occur to me that he'll ever sabo me, his only naive wish is that we both resign together. Yes I jump he jump. I hate that phrase.
My dad just gave me a scare when I told him abt this... cos dad kutuk me for being so stupid to always dunno how to keep my mouth shut. Deep inside I know my cllg will not harm me... but I cannot control what's beyond my control.
Anyway.. I will keep on sending positive energy towards all beings.. even if its to my current teamlead & managers. They're not harmful... I just hope that things don't get complicated next month when I return from HK.
Nobody at work will be expecting this from me. I'm like playing poker in the office. Question of what happen should there be a counter offer? DOH!!!
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Hmm...
Hmm... if you're wondering who's the schweird girl that called me out of no where, she was my secondary school classmate. I wonder what I can say to her on the phone when she narrated about her unreal story about her ex-boss mind-reading her & claiming to be jesus? Maybe I should directly enrole to join level2 of the BGF counselling course!
What is counseling?
Counseling is a process that enables a person in need (PIN) to sort out issues and reach decisions affecting his life.
It involves talking with another person in a way that helps the PIN solve a problem or helps to create conditions that will cause the PIN to understand and/or improve his behavior, character, values or life circumstances.
Counseling is a process that enables a person in need (PIN) to sort out issues and reach decisions affecting his life.
It involves talking with another person in a way that helps the PIN solve a problem or helps to create conditions that will cause the PIN to understand and/or improve his behavior, character, values or life circumstances.
It is not about giving advice (*should remember that*). It is about helping and supporting a person in need to find an understanding and answers that work for that person. Counseling is a friendly, supportive and positive approach to personal development.
~*~
No regret, I skipped the past life talk at BGF to be home watching the closing ceremony of beijing olympic. Very very interesting! The pretty qibao the ladies wore -- i want! Esp the those worn by the medal/flower ladies with flair skirt... so cool.
Somehow I have high hopes for China (economy wise)! Although I speak like a Malaysian and feel totally Malaysian... I wish I could wear the traditional chinese baju & understand 华文.
Broadly speaking... I wish for China, India together with East Asia, South Asia & SEAsia to move or challenge the world.
Finish crapping... :P
Friday, August 22, 2008
Random words
There's alot of words that went through my head... most of the time. From the moment something happened, I would think of the words of what to blog about when I get my fingers on the keyboard.
Like how do I link up all the schweird people and how do I deal with them?
How do I talk to this ex-classmate who would call me up again and start talking about jesus christ being chinese and brandon is jesus christ and he really is. What has got into her mind? What caused her to go insane? Is it because of her past life karma? Why is it so hard for schweird people to differentiate the real and the unreal?
If you say, ignore. Don't bother. Don't care. Ok so next time when the phone starts to ring (since you didn't save her number), you don't know that schweird people will call, you just answer the phone.. and when you realised its her "ooops!" *click* -- duutt duutt duuttttttt.....
Of course its easy to do that... do I want to do that? Why don't I want to do that?
When my teamlead ask me to do things, anything, I will just agree to do it.
My teammate would start saying "I'll do what you're asking me to do later, I have got my things to do first..."
...then he make that face for me to see. Why have I never talk like that to my teamlead (nor to anybody) at all? Seriously... what my teamlead would suddenly ask us to do adhoc-ly is not difficult, most of the time instructions will be given, all I gotta do is just do it. Simple.
I don't have a proper topic to write about now... maybe for fear of those schweird people reading my blog and mis-interpret it their own way, and somehow I just don't have enough patience to deal with them.
I am so impatient, I can't paint a pebble. I used to be able to paint / draw in school, but it takes me longer than usual to complete a piece of artblock. It takes alot of energy and time to paint the perfect picture. I liked art in school... I think I still appreciate art now... but I have lost my patience to time, that I don't remember when did I lose it.
The art of time management says that prioritise what is 'important' first above what is 'urgent'. But what is 'important'? What is important to me today, might not be important tomorrow. My mind is so random, I can manipulate my own mind. If I have a clear mind, I can even see how easily it is to manipulate others.
For example, I don't like talking to my mom, because she likes to pick on me on all the wuliow petty stupid stuff that you will be so annoyed with her. You bring home some rocks and you might want her help to paint the rocks, but first you hear complains about how stupid it is to get rocks, so heavy, so much work, so many to do.... then you bring home paint & brushes, and you just say a few words like "maybe you can try paint like this one (show sample), see if you can paint nicer than this?"
There she started painting... so nicely. Taking out her old art-book samples...
This evening, painting adjourned to BGF. But when I got home with the paint & stuff... it was already near midnight, thought mom should go sleep. I knew it that one sentence that I could say, would make her sooooo excited... "I asked Dtk to pick the nicest rock, you know which one he chose? Neehhh the one you paint one the one with alot of petals very big the one!!!"
I think it didn't take more than 5 minutes.... she took out the stones... and the paint and brushes... and started painting.
*yeah its 1am now she's still actively painting on the other table not disturbing me*
Words could hurt, words could flatter. The choice of my words could influence the listerner, to recieve it sourly or to take it sweetly.
I guess I have to remind myself of the intention inside my head... sometimes to me words doesn't matter (although it has always put in hot soup)... because I can say something sweet & nice to hear but there's ulterior intention to please you, there's also the crude & unfiltered hurtful remarks that I could simply babble without intention to displease you.
What's my point anyway?
Like how do I link up all the schweird people and how do I deal with them?
How do I talk to this ex-classmate who would call me up again and start talking about jesus christ being chinese and brandon is jesus christ and he really is. What has got into her mind? What caused her to go insane? Is it because of her past life karma? Why is it so hard for schweird people to differentiate the real and the unreal?
If you say, ignore. Don't bother. Don't care. Ok so next time when the phone starts to ring (since you didn't save her number), you don't know that schweird people will call, you just answer the phone.. and when you realised its her "ooops!" *click* -- duutt duutt duuttttttt.....
Of course its easy to do that... do I want to do that? Why don't I want to do that?
When my teamlead ask me to do things, anything, I will just agree to do it.
My teammate would start saying "I'll do what you're asking me to do later, I have got my things to do first..."
...then he make that face for me to see. Why have I never talk like that to my teamlead (nor to anybody) at all? Seriously... what my teamlead would suddenly ask us to do adhoc-ly is not difficult, most of the time instructions will be given, all I gotta do is just do it. Simple.
I don't have a proper topic to write about now... maybe for fear of those schweird people reading my blog and mis-interpret it their own way, and somehow I just don't have enough patience to deal with them.
I am so impatient, I can't paint a pebble. I used to be able to paint / draw in school, but it takes me longer than usual to complete a piece of artblock. It takes alot of energy and time to paint the perfect picture. I liked art in school... I think I still appreciate art now... but I have lost my patience to time, that I don't remember when did I lose it.
The art of time management says that prioritise what is 'important' first above what is 'urgent'. But what is 'important'? What is important to me today, might not be important tomorrow. My mind is so random, I can manipulate my own mind. If I have a clear mind, I can even see how easily it is to manipulate others.
For example, I don't like talking to my mom, because she likes to pick on me on all the wuliow petty stupid stuff that you will be so annoyed with her. You bring home some rocks and you might want her help to paint the rocks, but first you hear complains about how stupid it is to get rocks, so heavy, so much work, so many to do.... then you bring home paint & brushes, and you just say a few words like "maybe you can try paint like this one (show sample), see if you can paint nicer than this?"
There she started painting... so nicely. Taking out her old art-book samples...
This evening, painting adjourned to BGF. But when I got home with the paint & stuff... it was already near midnight, thought mom should go sleep. I knew it that one sentence that I could say, would make her sooooo excited... "I asked Dtk to pick the nicest rock, you know which one he chose? Neehhh the one you paint one the one with alot of petals very big the one!!!"
I think it didn't take more than 5 minutes.... she took out the stones... and the paint and brushes... and started painting.
*yeah its 1am now she's still actively painting on the other table not disturbing me*
Words could hurt, words could flatter. The choice of my words could influence the listerner, to recieve it sourly or to take it sweetly.
I guess I have to remind myself of the intention inside my head... sometimes to me words doesn't matter (although it has always put in hot soup)... because I can say something sweet & nice to hear but there's ulterior intention to please you, there's also the crude & unfiltered hurtful remarks that I could simply babble without intention to displease you.
What's my point anyway?
Monday, August 11, 2008
Activity-Oriented
"I'm not looking for a do-er, I'm looking for a thinker" ~ interviewer said.
That prompted to reflect, if I have the iNtuitive preference which makes me think so much endlessly inside my mind, then why is my temperament high on choleric... the "doer"?! The personality-temperament test also say it's contradictory to be both high choleric - phlegmatic... can I be both a doer AND and thinker? What do you think? Maybe you'd think I'm more of a do-er eh?
Since I ask so much & wonder off in my random thoughts, sayang thinks I'm a thinker generally.. but with work/ activities, I'm a do-er. The fact is that, I cannot sit and 'do nothing'. Sometimes I wonder, what happens if my heart just stop beating one day... due to never-ending pumping. Cos all batteries have certain lifespan.
I was transported to sayang house oneday, without bringing my laptop nor any materials along... and I had to do nothing... hmmm.... I rest on the mattress but took out my handphone and starting sms-ing.
Every night at home, if I'm not out for mtg, then I'll open the laptop go online... do anything! Settle the DnD tickets? Process the photos? Post up a blog? Why is it that I can't live a moment... without doing something?
Even if there's really nothing to do anymore... oh there sure will be something! Clean the house.. read the book... arrange my clothes... clear my bags... the list goes on.
Now am I a do-er or what?! There's endless things to do...
- the new house
- the DnD
- the sun sch student trip
- the weddings to attend
- the 3rd issue of newsletter
- the idc
- the kathina
- the photos
- the website
- the membership system
- the publicity
- the job change
- the plan
- the olympic
- the funds
- the insurance
- the trip
...
..
I hope I'm still normal! But I'm not complaining if I'm not normal ;)
That prompted to reflect, if I have the iNtuitive preference which makes me think so much endlessly inside my mind, then why is my temperament high on choleric... the "doer"?! The personality-temperament test also say it's contradictory to be both high choleric - phlegmatic... can I be both a doer AND and thinker? What do you think? Maybe you'd think I'm more of a do-er eh?
Since I ask so much & wonder off in my random thoughts, sayang thinks I'm a thinker generally.. but with work/ activities, I'm a do-er. The fact is that, I cannot sit and 'do nothing'. Sometimes I wonder, what happens if my heart just stop beating one day... due to never-ending pumping. Cos all batteries have certain lifespan.
I was transported to sayang house oneday, without bringing my laptop nor any materials along... and I had to do nothing... hmmm.... I rest on the mattress but took out my handphone and starting sms-ing.
Every night at home, if I'm not out for mtg, then I'll open the laptop go online... do anything! Settle the DnD tickets? Process the photos? Post up a blog? Why is it that I can't live a moment... without doing something?
Even if there's really nothing to do anymore... oh there sure will be something! Clean the house.. read the book... arrange my clothes... clear my bags... the list goes on.
Now am I a do-er or what?! There's endless things to do...
- the new house
- the DnD
- the sun sch student trip
- the weddings to attend
- the 3rd issue of newsletter
- the idc
- the kathina
- the photos
- the website
- the membership system
- the publicity
- the job change
- the plan
- the olympic
- the funds
- the insurance
- the trip
...
..
I hope I'm still normal! But I'm not complaining if I'm not normal ;)
Monday, August 04, 2008
OMG New Kids On The Block -- Summertime!
I've heard 'Summertime' a few times by now on radio, pardon me for my lag.. cos I was kinda not in tuned with radio fm, the usual kancil my mom used to send me to work takda radio & I hardly drive now! First time I heard 'Summertime' by New Kids On the Block on radio... at uptown, I was like *speechless*... my fingers holding my jaws... and since my mom was seated beside, I gotta behave.. and I can't scream with voice.. so I just screamed ala-Ally Mcbeal.
And amazingly, I could STILL scream over New Kids On the Block! This morning, on my way driving to temple, I was rushing *as usual* but suddenly lite fm put on NKOTB! And the song?! da da da da dum.... I'll Be Loving You Forever..... and I am still this crazy old me. Then I just sang along... you know the whole lyrics of the song?! Yes.. I can sing ALL NKOTB songs... come to think of it... hey why not dedicate this song to sayang! Hahaha. I used to think I'm singing the song for Joey Mcintyre, doh.
Yeah
I'm not that kind of guy who can take a broken heart,
So don't ever leave, I don't want to see us part.
The very thought of losing you means,
That everything...Would go down under.
[ Chorus: ]
I'll be loving you forever
Just as long as you want me to be
I'll be loving you forever
All this love's for you and me, yeah
(I'll be loving you)
I'll be
(I'll be loving you)
Loving you
(The things you do)
Yeah, it's forever
(I'll be loving you)
I'll be
(I'll be loving you)
Loving you, yeah
I count the blessings that keep our love new
There's one for me And a million for you.
There's just so much that I want to say
But when I look at you
All my thoughts get in the way
[ Chorus ]
We've come to far, to ever turn back now,
This love will last forever...
I can see it all now!
Somebody please hit me! Wake up wake up! If only there's internet when I was 12 or if there's youtube when I was 15... First thing first... youtube got so much crap inside there, just one search and oh my ggoddddd. As crazy ridiculous as I may sound, I wished that the 'Summertime' video was not so provocative with near naked lengluis seducing the 5 guys... really cheesy sleezy mem-per-wuliow-kan a nice tune / song. Ok ok.. actually the lyric also wuliow... but I actually liked the song minus the sluttiness of it!
Here you go... see if you have any idea what I'm zoning myself into, before there was Backstreet Boys or Take That -- New Kids On the Block ruled my life. I'm still hoping and wishing that one day, I'll be able to meet them... all 5 of them, and I will keep my composure... cannot be like the siow cha-boh who simply couldn't breath or cry infront of them and couldn't even utter a word!
OH ya... another thing... my all time favourite NKOTB member > Joey Mcintyre! When I first heard 'Summertime', I thought the 1st verse is Joe! Woww! *ahem* Well JordanK is always singing the lead but Joey gets to lead other songs too! The youngest... the cutest... the voice... the capricon (im virgo), the I-would-faint-if-I-see-him... Joey Mcintyre!
And amazingly, I could STILL scream over New Kids On the Block! This morning, on my way driving to temple, I was rushing *as usual* but suddenly lite fm put on NKOTB! And the song?! da da da da dum.... I'll Be Loving You Forever..... and I am still this crazy old me. Then I just sang along... you know the whole lyrics of the song?! Yes.. I can sing ALL NKOTB songs... come to think of it... hey why not dedicate this song to sayang! Hahaha. I used to think I'm singing the song for Joey Mcintyre, doh.
Yeah
I'm not that kind of guy who can take a broken heart,
So don't ever leave, I don't want to see us part.
The very thought of losing you means,
That everything...Would go down under.
[ Chorus: ]
I'll be loving you forever
Just as long as you want me to be
I'll be loving you forever
All this love's for you and me, yeah
(I'll be loving you)
I'll be
(I'll be loving you)
Loving you
(The things you do)
Yeah, it's forever
(I'll be loving you)
I'll be
(I'll be loving you)
Loving you, yeah
I count the blessings that keep our love new
There's one for me And a million for you.
There's just so much that I want to say
But when I look at you
All my thoughts get in the way
[ Chorus ]
We've come to far, to ever turn back now,
This love will last forever...
I can see it all now!
Somebody please hit me! Wake up wake up! If only there's internet when I was 12 or if there's youtube when I was 15... First thing first... youtube got so much crap inside there, just one search and oh my ggoddddd. As crazy ridiculous as I may sound, I wished that the 'Summertime' video was not so provocative with near naked lengluis seducing the 5 guys... really cheesy sleezy mem-per-wuliow-kan a nice tune / song. Ok ok.. actually the lyric also wuliow... but I actually liked the song minus the sluttiness of it!
Here you go... see if you have any idea what I'm zoning myself into, before there was Backstreet Boys or Take That -- New Kids On the Block ruled my life. I'm still hoping and wishing that one day, I'll be able to meet them... all 5 of them, and I will keep my composure... cannot be like the siow cha-boh who simply couldn't breath or cry infront of them and couldn't even utter a word!
OH ya... another thing... my all time favourite NKOTB member > Joey Mcintyre! When I first heard 'Summertime', I thought the 1st verse is Joe! Woww! *ahem* Well JordanK is always singing the lead but Joey gets to lead other songs too! The youngest... the cutest... the voice... the capricon (im virgo), the I-would-faint-if-I-see-him... Joey Mcintyre!
Friday, August 01, 2008
Interview and mom
I better blog a quick one before I head off to a frenzy Fri-Sun. I went for the As interview this evening, only to have the interview contact person ON LEAVE. Then I waited till a little past interview time, and the guard finally got somebody to pick up the phone, and asked whoever to come out to greet me. So I waited until no mood liow.. a chinese guy with one tiny earing on his left ear came out to shake my hand... and said his name. AND I totally can't remember his name. His tag is always covered.
I'm expected to be interviewed by 2 indian guys but why am I talking to a chinese guy? Hmm.. so anyway the whole crap abt the As interview, is just like how Mudz (already cleaning shit in As) have warned me -- NOT to take it up, to firefight or clean shit. Imagine being hired to lead / drive a whole new asset mgt system from zero... well infact negative zero. It's already in a mess... how to start from zero? Actually a big part of me is saying -- GO for it! You love challenging yourself... you want to be like a consultant, and go fix other ppl's problem and you like to do that! Why are the circumstances stopping me?
The craziest thing that came out of my interview today is not about the interview, but about my whole new inspired self -- that I want to change! Errr... not that drastically, but I want to go speak to my teamlead abt new roles and ask for transfer! Never ask never know! I was even telling myself, heck go ask for transfer to Spore temporary also syiok wat... I'm so sampat that its 2.40am now and I'm still online.. to just finish off all my todo-list.
Closed 2 epf investment sales... so abit semangat for myself... was hoping to close my cousin sis dca investment, but I don't have any maybank autodebit form left! ISssghhh... tomorrow... Fri when I go HQ uptown to submit sale gotta request for more autodebit forms. Meanwhile at uptown, I could also settle the legal fee payment. *I just enjoy killing multiple birds with one stone*
Oh ya.. the motivation for writing blog was initially about my annoying mom... again. I just don't know why I have to 'react' to her, because all she's trying to do is just to "talk to me" but I can't engage in any meaningful normal conversation with her. NOT when she goes
(before leaving the house for interview)
- "your hair ah! Why do something to your hair?!" *keep running faster out of the house*
(when she's folding the clothes and I'm seated nearby in the hall, suddenly..)
- "so you don't like the As job right? you must make courtesy call to say you're not going for the second interview if ever they call you back ah... ppl so good call you for interview.. you dont like you must call back ppl to say you dont like..." *i didn't say I don't like job*
(when she ask me to write 'attention to raymond' on the envelop)
- "WHY YOU WRITE LIkE THAT?!" huh?
- "So rude! You should write Mr... after so many years you dunno how to put Mr.?!"
(when I took the liberty to give 2 biji durians to neighbour since our hse got so many biji)
- "why you so kaypoh go tell people you want to give them durian? nevermind, since your aunty is not coming tonight, you can give the durians to neighbour..."
- "WHAT?!? you gave only 2 biji? HAIYOOOO!!! Dunno how to give dun give la! Where got ppl give 2 biji durian!!?"
*faint*
I feel like blaming myself for being such a no good daughter who dunno how to talk to her mom nicely, but on the other hand... I wish I don't have to talk to her ever & she don't come ask me why I don't talk to her.
I'm expected to be interviewed by 2 indian guys but why am I talking to a chinese guy? Hmm.. so anyway the whole crap abt the As interview, is just like how Mudz (already cleaning shit in As) have warned me -- NOT to take it up, to firefight or clean shit. Imagine being hired to lead / drive a whole new asset mgt system from zero... well infact negative zero. It's already in a mess... how to start from zero? Actually a big part of me is saying -- GO for it! You love challenging yourself... you want to be like a consultant, and go fix other ppl's problem and you like to do that! Why are the circumstances stopping me?
The craziest thing that came out of my interview today is not about the interview, but about my whole new inspired self -- that I want to change! Errr... not that drastically, but I want to go speak to my teamlead abt new roles and ask for transfer! Never ask never know! I was even telling myself, heck go ask for transfer to Spore temporary also syiok wat... I'm so sampat that its 2.40am now and I'm still online.. to just finish off all my todo-list.
Closed 2 epf investment sales... so abit semangat for myself... was hoping to close my cousin sis dca investment, but I don't have any maybank autodebit form left! ISssghhh... tomorrow... Fri when I go HQ uptown to submit sale gotta request for more autodebit forms. Meanwhile at uptown, I could also settle the legal fee payment. *I just enjoy killing multiple birds with one stone*
Oh ya.. the motivation for writing blog was initially about my annoying mom... again. I just don't know why I have to 'react' to her, because all she's trying to do is just to "talk to me" but I can't engage in any meaningful normal conversation with her. NOT when she goes
(before leaving the house for interview)
- "your hair ah! Why do something to your hair?!" *keep running faster out of the house*
(when she's folding the clothes and I'm seated nearby in the hall, suddenly..)
- "so you don't like the As job right? you must make courtesy call to say you're not going for the second interview if ever they call you back ah... ppl so good call you for interview.. you dont like you must call back ppl to say you dont like..." *i didn't say I don't like job*
(when she ask me to write 'attention to raymond' on the envelop)
- "WHY YOU WRITE LIkE THAT?!" huh?
- "So rude! You should write Mr... after so many years you dunno how to put Mr.?!"
(when I took the liberty to give 2 biji durians to neighbour since our hse got so many biji)
- "why you so kaypoh go tell people you want to give them durian? nevermind, since your aunty is not coming tonight, you can give the durians to neighbour..."
- "WHAT?!? you gave only 2 biji? HAIYOOOO!!! Dunno how to give dun give la! Where got ppl give 2 biji durian!!?"
*faint*
I feel like blaming myself for being such a no good daughter who dunno how to talk to her mom nicely, but on the other hand... I wish I don't have to talk to her ever & she don't come ask me why I don't talk to her.
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