So I havent even went up to the actual interview, I was supposed to answer some basic technical questions. Gosh.. and I come fully unprepared.
Check this out. Can you tell me all about the OSI layer? In sequence? (shoot, I never memorize that). What's ARP? UDP? The difference with TCP? What's Multicast, Broadcast? SNMP? *pphuuooohhhh*
As you know, I flunked the test. It was the most basic network questions to ask. The next round will be 10x harder than this, and so that's the end of my not-even-an-interview-yet!
Why dont I just sit quietly here in the office and just learn to be patient with people, life goes on as usual.
Now the camp looks so much more fun & relaxing to look forward to! Cant wait for Wed night ;)
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Friday, June 23, 2006
A joke?
Joke 1.
I was supposed to attend the exco mtg, when sis D*ly saw me straight away she asked who / why stained the wall inside the room. Anyway, so the meeting started, and I I started to sms. I wanted to tell CO about what D*ly complained, when I finish texting -- guess who I sent my sms to?!
My mind was soo blur, I sent to D*ly! *beep beep* her hp sounded. There I dunno to where to hide, I just raised my hand to my head, gesturing I'm sorry. That's the last 5cent I had in my hp credit, lol.
Joke 2.
This is not so funny, but if its really true - Amituofo. Told you my granduncle passed away not too long ago, on the night before his burial, I dreamt abt the granduncle. I'm not sure if I purposely thought of him, but it seems like partial dream / partial imagination. He was lost for direction after his death, I pointed to him the way to Pureland, where that's the place all Mahayana-Buddhist would chant 'Amituofo' to go.
Then I believe I snapped out of the dream/imagination.
Coupla days ago, mom was telling me that in those Chinese custom ceremony, the Chinese-monk who did the prayer / chants on the last night of rituals, will be able to 'predict' which level the departed one has passed on to. My mom's cousin sister who's the very kaypoh one (who knew how to read Chinese), say it was written on dunno what paper, that our granduncle has gone to the Pureland!
LoL -- that's how unbelievable my family members can be. Mom asked "so in your dream, you pointed to ku-kong to go which direction ah?!" ...
I was supposed to attend the exco mtg, when sis D*ly saw me straight away she asked who / why stained the wall inside the room. Anyway, so the meeting started, and I I started to sms. I wanted to tell CO about what D*ly complained, when I finish texting -- guess who I sent my sms to?!
My mind was soo blur, I sent to D*ly! *beep beep* her hp sounded. There I dunno to where to hide, I just raised my hand to my head, gesturing I'm sorry. That's the last 5cent I had in my hp credit, lol.
Joke 2.
This is not so funny, but if its really true - Amituofo. Told you my granduncle passed away not too long ago, on the night before his burial, I dreamt abt the granduncle. I'm not sure if I purposely thought of him, but it seems like partial dream / partial imagination. He was lost for direction after his death, I pointed to him the way to Pureland, where that's the place all Mahayana-Buddhist would chant 'Amituofo' to go.
Then I believe I snapped out of the dream/imagination.
Coupla days ago, mom was telling me that in those Chinese custom ceremony, the Chinese-monk who did the prayer / chants on the last night of rituals, will be able to 'predict' which level the departed one has passed on to. My mom's cousin sister who's the very kaypoh one (who knew how to read Chinese), say it was written on dunno what paper, that our granduncle has gone to the Pureland!
LoL -- that's how unbelievable my family members can be. Mom asked "so in your dream, you pointed to ku-kong to go which direction ah?!" ...
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Matter of Coincidence...
Ever wonder how freaky some incidents happen so coincidently in your life? This morning my dad drove my SLK to work and got banged from the back. No fault of his.
Funny thing I realised its just a week b4 the camp...
Last camp, just a week before the camp I was heading to HK/Macau, if I'm not mistaken the day was Wed night, when I'd already left the house, my cousin quietly drove my SLK and met with an accident by getting banged from the back!
What?! Is my car the jinx or the camp the jinx for my car?! :P Even when I talk about booking airasia flights way in advance for travel, somehow the camp date is always near the date of my flight!
On this very same subject, there's my cllg who's now on a weeklong break to be at her husband's hometown in Kchg, her brother's car got into an accident forcing her bro to use her car instead for the whole week (the week that she's not going to use the car). Last year, this cllg also went back Kchg for a week, and just prior to that, same thing happen to her bro's car, so coincidently the brother had to use her car for the week that she'll be away.
Has this anything to do with what Perpetual Transmutation?!!
Funny thing I realised its just a week b4 the camp...
Last camp, just a week before the camp I was heading to HK/Macau, if I'm not mistaken the day was Wed night, when I'd already left the house, my cousin quietly drove my SLK and met with an accident by getting banged from the back!
What?! Is my car the jinx or the camp the jinx for my car?! :P Even when I talk about booking airasia flights way in advance for travel, somehow the camp date is always near the date of my flight!
On this very same subject, there's my cllg who's now on a weeklong break to be at her husband's hometown in Kchg, her brother's car got into an accident forcing her bro to use her car instead for the whole week (the week that she's not going to use the car). Last year, this cllg also went back Kchg for a week, and just prior to that, same thing happen to her bro's car, so coincidently the brother had to use her car for the week that she'll be away.
Has this anything to do with what Perpetual Transmutation?!!
Sunday, June 18, 2006
on "Perpetual Transmutation"
Went to the SQ'ing Your Life training (sounds like 'rescuing' your life :P) and besides the meaning of Chinese-characters that was intriguing, I learnt a new phrase -- Perpetual Transmutation -- the power of the mind / mental energy to transform / influence a certain result.
Some aunty said maybe its like 'telepathy' but bottomline is, I agree that the mind works wonders. Eg. very often when I'm inside the car, at a stop, when I start 'looking' at person on the next vehicle, 99.9% of the time the person will turn his/her head to look at me. Sometimes its just done unintentionally, when I looked at somebody, people will know I'm looking at them!
So on Saturday morning, after attending THE function at Puchong SSL, I drove back thinking about food / lunch and if dad wants to join me and mom for lunch. Then mom was thinking maybe we should go find dad in Serdang for lunch, but I drove home instead, and dropping by SS3. While I was eating, how miraculously I saw my dad's car cruising through the road infront of the coffeeshop. Instantly I buzzed him, he parked his car and came to join us for lunch. (it was all not pre-plan, dad didn't wanna eat in Serdang so he came back near-home area for lunch)
Whoaah... Perpetual Transmutation -- if you keep thinking alot about something, that something will happen! :D It's just the EXACT experiement put in practice after listening to the talk. But it was very hard to explain to my mom about the crystal experiment thingy done by a japanese professor, to proof this Perpetual Transmutation thingy works! Now your WATER has crystal-particle inside, if you focue your thought on the 'water' as 'love' -- nice / pretty crystal forms under the microscopic lense. How different the world makes, if we all put alot of 'positive' thoughts instead of negativity.
Life is good, if only we just think of it in a positive way! The 'matter / form / substance / thingy' can be the same, but if our mind can think of it from the positive angel, the 'matter / form / substance / thingy' will be affected in the positive way.
I think we're all going to start thinking positive from now on, if you have not already done so.. :D
Imagine the whole world will become a better place to be in, if all mental energy is concentrated on goodness / positivity / love. To all readers in this blog -- THINK POSITIVE NOW to HELP THIS WORLD!!!
Some aunty said maybe its like 'telepathy' but bottomline is, I agree that the mind works wonders. Eg. very often when I'm inside the car, at a stop, when I start 'looking' at person on the next vehicle, 99.9% of the time the person will turn his/her head to look at me. Sometimes its just done unintentionally, when I looked at somebody, people will know I'm looking at them!
So on Saturday morning, after attending THE function at Puchong SSL, I drove back thinking about food / lunch and if dad wants to join me and mom for lunch. Then mom was thinking maybe we should go find dad in Serdang for lunch, but I drove home instead, and dropping by SS3. While I was eating, how miraculously I saw my dad's car cruising through the road infront of the coffeeshop. Instantly I buzzed him, he parked his car and came to join us for lunch. (it was all not pre-plan, dad didn't wanna eat in Serdang so he came back near-home area for lunch)
Whoaah... Perpetual Transmutation -- if you keep thinking alot about something, that something will happen! :D It's just the EXACT experiement put in practice after listening to the talk. But it was very hard to explain to my mom about the crystal experiment thingy done by a japanese professor, to proof this Perpetual Transmutation thingy works! Now your WATER has crystal-particle inside, if you focue your thought on the 'water' as 'love' -- nice / pretty crystal forms under the microscopic lense. How different the world makes, if we all put alot of 'positive' thoughts instead of negativity.
Life is good, if only we just think of it in a positive way! The 'matter / form / substance / thingy' can be the same, but if our mind can think of it from the positive angel, the 'matter / form / substance / thingy' will be affected in the positive way.
I think we're all going to start thinking positive from now on, if you have not already done so.. :D
Imagine the whole world will become a better place to be in, if all mental energy is concentrated on goodness / positivity / love. To all readers in this blog -- THINK POSITIVE NOW to HELP THIS WORLD!!!
Friday, June 16, 2006
Just shoot me
Why have I not shot (verbally) anybody in real life literally? I think the only other time when I told off this girl to shut up (of nonstop whining abt her exam result sitting inside my car, when my score is even lower than her and I didnt say a word), thought I felt slightly good about it at that time, but then feel abit weird after that knowing I shot somebody. When I shoot... I mean, oh boy you seriously do not want me to shoot.
When I resort to shoot (when I couldn't take it anymore), the effect is always devastating, which means human-to-human relationship will strain. Because as I've reached my threshold level, there is no eating back the words that I say, and I usually (definitely) mean what I say. When I say 'shut up' to you with my uncool look, you'll know I'll never talk to you again, unless you talked first.
In my office now, I now understand what's it like working with stupid people, and I now learnt it the hard way, that I cannot tolerate working with people who is killing me inside. Stupidity kills me.
Another problem with me, is I cannot take it when other people view me as stupid, since you're part of them, since majority of people here are incompetent. Its very easy for most people out there to pre-judge you before they even associate with you. Very often in uni, I'm thought to be Christian just because I spoke english. I rolled my eye up till you cant see my eye-ball, and I still cant believe people can judge me like that.
Just because I admire people working in big co or having great jobs, doesn't mean I'll get mad if I know you've got that top-notch high flying job. It's sick. Doesn't mean I work in dysfunctional team, I am dysfunctional myself!
So instead of crapping about my problems, what's the solution? For me to stand up and say f*** off at these innocently incomptent people -- might as well tender my resignation. For me to teach my teamlead about management / taichi kungfu, who's already getting tormented by all the bosses bullying her... I dont know how, I dont want to be lord jesus christ dying for other ppl's sin.
Another stupid fact is, every change in 'comment' have to be 'approved' by the big chilipadi boss. So there's a different case that I found, and the fault is at the client, but we're not allowed to create our own new comment. See... even explaining this make it sound so stupid -- pick up the phone to call the bigboss and get approval -- case close. HOW DIFFICULT IS THAT?! The poor girl who dare not speak to the bigboss for 'fear' of getting being shot at rather waste her energy and my energy to think of what comment to put, that wont require the poor girl escalating to the bigboss.
I cannot stand the fact that people are 'afraid' people. Give me the big boss, what can she do man, eat me up yes, but I'm too fat for her to swallow down her throat. Another manager warned me that I'm too 'naive' to say the wrong things and 'try to be hero'. There's so much f*** up politics, to know what to say, not to say the wrong things, to the wrong people. What kind of stupid company is this?!
My own teamlead is always reminding me of 'what to say' and 'what not to say'. Even asking the wrong questions can backfire. So WHAT?! Kill me if you want, I dont care.
Back to my point -- which ties back to my dad's attitude -- why are you afraid to tell off your boss if you really cannot take it? I cant, I just cant shoot back at people verbally like that. My dad can... he's a government servant & always will be, the most experienced in his field.
I have loans/bills to pay, travel plans to make. I cant, just cant blow up and shoot!
The last I blew up, I lost my bestfriend. In my career, if I blow up, I'll lose my job. What now? Simple... get on with life. It's all a cycle / circle. I forsee I'll forever be trying to force down my energy of not to shoot people, if only I could learn... patience?!
Ohmygod... teach me patience man...
When I resort to shoot (when I couldn't take it anymore), the effect is always devastating, which means human-to-human relationship will strain. Because as I've reached my threshold level, there is no eating back the words that I say, and I usually (definitely) mean what I say. When I say 'shut up' to you with my uncool look, you'll know I'll never talk to you again, unless you talked first.
In my office now, I now understand what's it like working with stupid people, and I now learnt it the hard way, that I cannot tolerate working with people who is killing me inside. Stupidity kills me.
Another problem with me, is I cannot take it when other people view me as stupid, since you're part of them, since majority of people here are incompetent. Its very easy for most people out there to pre-judge you before they even associate with you. Very often in uni, I'm thought to be Christian just because I spoke english. I rolled my eye up till you cant see my eye-ball, and I still cant believe people can judge me like that.
Just because I admire people working in big co or having great jobs, doesn't mean I'll get mad if I know you've got that top-notch high flying job. It's sick. Doesn't mean I work in dysfunctional team, I am dysfunctional myself!
So instead of crapping about my problems, what's the solution? For me to stand up and say f*** off at these innocently incomptent people -- might as well tender my resignation. For me to teach my teamlead about management / taichi kungfu, who's already getting tormented by all the bosses bullying her... I dont know how, I dont want to be lord jesus christ dying for other ppl's sin.
Another stupid fact is, every change in 'comment' have to be 'approved' by the big chilipadi boss. So there's a different case that I found, and the fault is at the client, but we're not allowed to create our own new comment. See... even explaining this make it sound so stupid -- pick up the phone to call the bigboss and get approval -- case close. HOW DIFFICULT IS THAT?! The poor girl who dare not speak to the bigboss for 'fear' of getting being shot at rather waste her energy and my energy to think of what comment to put, that wont require the poor girl escalating to the bigboss.
I cannot stand the fact that people are 'afraid' people. Give me the big boss, what can she do man, eat me up yes, but I'm too fat for her to swallow down her throat. Another manager warned me that I'm too 'naive' to say the wrong things and 'try to be hero'. There's so much f*** up politics, to know what to say, not to say the wrong things, to the wrong people. What kind of stupid company is this?!
My own teamlead is always reminding me of 'what to say' and 'what not to say'. Even asking the wrong questions can backfire. So WHAT?! Kill me if you want, I dont care.
Back to my point -- which ties back to my dad's attitude -- why are you afraid to tell off your boss if you really cannot take it? I cant, I just cant shoot back at people verbally like that. My dad can... he's a government servant & always will be, the most experienced in his field.
I have loans/bills to pay, travel plans to make. I cant, just cant blow up and shoot!
The last I blew up, I lost my bestfriend. In my career, if I blow up, I'll lose my job. What now? Simple... get on with life. It's all a cycle / circle. I forsee I'll forever be trying to force down my energy of not to shoot people, if only I could learn... patience?!
Ohmygod... teach me patience man...
Oh nothing much...
nothing much happened... I should be watching England playing now but i just thought of shouting out...
er.. I dont know what.. I just blogged here, a place I hardly write... wait till I get the inspiration to shoot people. Now no energy.
My mom new football idol -- KAKA!! hahaha.. ;) my mom say he's sooo lengchai! *cough*
I almost lost hope in Spain, but he won 4-0?!! Err, I think I saw 3 goals before I doze off. I havent exactly picked my fave team to root for this world cup, dont exactly know why... previously I'ved always chosen Spain, but they often end up screwed up so I dont know this time around, I tell people I support Japan -- DOH, see how they lost to Aus. Then what, pick Brazil to root for?! No syiok la... everybody know they'll win.
So who can be a tough fight for Brazil?! Dont tell me again Germany vs Brazil in final, I dont like watching repeat. Maybe that's why the semifinals matches are more exciting to watch :D wah... going to be very sleep deprived in the next few weeks man... with the incovar camp, worldcup and siemreap trip all within 2 weeks!
Conserve... conserve energy. No need work so hard at work liow... I'm deciding to start spamming other company's HR mailbox. I need a weapon in hand to go for a final showdown.
And if you're wondering what is life without football?! ASK MY BROTHER. He gave an idiotic answer to 'why are you not watching the world cup matches?' to which replied "before I become successful (in A***Y), nothing else is interesting to me". My uncle almost puked, and so you know where I use 'Doh' the most.
er.. I dont know what.. I just blogged here, a place I hardly write... wait till I get the inspiration to shoot people. Now no energy.
My mom new football idol -- KAKA!! hahaha.. ;) my mom say he's sooo lengchai! *cough*
I almost lost hope in Spain, but he won 4-0?!! Err, I think I saw 3 goals before I doze off. I havent exactly picked my fave team to root for this world cup, dont exactly know why... previously I'ved always chosen Spain, but they often end up screwed up so I dont know this time around, I tell people I support Japan -- DOH, see how they lost to Aus. Then what, pick Brazil to root for?! No syiok la... everybody know they'll win.
So who can be a tough fight for Brazil?! Dont tell me again Germany vs Brazil in final, I dont like watching repeat. Maybe that's why the semifinals matches are more exciting to watch :D wah... going to be very sleep deprived in the next few weeks man... with the incovar camp, worldcup and siemreap trip all within 2 weeks!
Conserve... conserve energy. No need work so hard at work liow... I'm deciding to start spamming other company's HR mailbox. I need a weapon in hand to go for a final showdown.
And if you're wondering what is life without football?! ASK MY BROTHER. He gave an idiotic answer to 'why are you not watching the world cup matches?' to which replied "before I become successful (in A***Y), nothing else is interesting to me". My uncle almost puked, and so you know where I use 'Doh' the most.
Monday, June 12, 2006
Why dont they come to Malaysia?!
When I was 12, NKOTB went to SINGAPORE for a concert. I wouldn't fly there, I dont even have a passport that time.. and wait I was just 12. Of course it did cross my mind that I could be daring enough to go alone, but I have no idea how am I going to do that.
When I was in uni, I won 10 passes to meet Joey Mcintyre, I had to sit by the telephone the entire weekend to call hitz fm on every cue to call. I got it at 7am in the morning on a Sunday, when I woke up earlier than usual, with the hope that the line would be accessible. THEN, Joey Mac cancelled his stop to Malaysia just days before his arrival :( I was hyperventilating in one weekend, but the cancellation news was like a bombshell. Yet, my netpal in SG (who's a guy, who obviously wouldn't go crazy about another guy) who didn't have a clue who Joey Mac was, went to see him! Aaaaaaaaaaarrrghh......... As sceduled, Joey Mac was in SG...
Last week, Jamie Collum was in HK. Aaaaaaaaaaarrrghhh.... Yehim went to see his concert! This June 15th, Jamie Collum's 3rd & last concert will be in.. where else Singapore!!!! Why does the country Malaysia lose out to Singapore all the time, when it comes to famous people?!!
Having said that, I must count my blessings, must be so grateful, LinkinPark and Mariah Carey, one of my all time fave singers came to Malaysia for me to go see them. Of course I have to be out of my mind, if I could forget that I've enjoyed myself in the Wycelf Jean / Fugees and Black Eyed Peas live performances.
Eh.. you think MTVAsia Awards will ever happen in KL!?! :P
When I was in uni, I won 10 passes to meet Joey Mcintyre, I had to sit by the telephone the entire weekend to call hitz fm on every cue to call. I got it at 7am in the morning on a Sunday, when I woke up earlier than usual, with the hope that the line would be accessible. THEN, Joey Mac cancelled his stop to Malaysia just days before his arrival :( I was hyperventilating in one weekend, but the cancellation news was like a bombshell. Yet, my netpal in SG (who's a guy, who obviously wouldn't go crazy about another guy) who didn't have a clue who Joey Mac was, went to see him! Aaaaaaaaaaarrrghh......... As sceduled, Joey Mac was in SG...
Last week, Jamie Collum was in HK. Aaaaaaaaaaarrrghhh.... Yehim went to see his concert! This June 15th, Jamie Collum's 3rd & last concert will be in.. where else Singapore!!!! Why does the country Malaysia lose out to Singapore all the time, when it comes to famous people?!!
Having said that, I must count my blessings, must be so grateful, LinkinPark and Mariah Carey, one of my all time fave singers came to Malaysia for me to go see them. Of course I have to be out of my mind, if I could forget that I've enjoyed myself in the Wycelf Jean / Fugees and Black Eyed Peas live performances.
Eh.. you think MTVAsia Awards will ever happen in KL!?! :P
Friday, June 09, 2006
When you're dying -- say amitofuo?
I'm not sure if I'm dying, but my teamlead is. Wind blew she heard that she will be removed. If the management intend to move my team to SG, how am I supposed to cover my arse?! I also thought its nothing wrong to go work in SG rite... but imagine the boss there will be the 2-face-die-also-need-face boss, who could find a scapegoat in our operation team across the border, to cover his own arse as the linemanager, who has never met us before.
I'm wondering if I'm having enough of this shit, I should seriously look for another job. I guess the Bodhisvatta was great enough to know I'll always have deadlock in my career advancement, too many 'siu yan' that I cannot control. Wish I could meet more 'guai yan', I know I have... but my 'siu yan' is too powerful.
If I'd perfected my skill of corporate-politic kungfu, I wouldn't be me. I wont be the same person that I want myself to be. Honest and integrity? I doubt it truly exist in any business, not in the corporations that I know of.
I dont believe that all corporations are like that, but is so hard not to be dragged into this pitfall. I am not stupid, I work hard enough, I can talk and I ask alot of questions... but if the people on top of you want to climb out from the same pitfall, they have to step on somebody to crawl out!
I'm closing all the cases day by day every minutes, every hour... but there's no reporting tool for me to track my performance. Only my dying teamlead knows I'm such a great hand to her.
*sigh.. I so wish I was not jumping from the frying pan into the fire. But since I'm already in the fire, what can I do?
The last words before the mtg with my teamlead was 'even if we lose, atleast we know we did put up a fight for it'. My logical mind says, how can they survive without our team?! How can they screw themselves by killing off the entire operation team? Who's gonna cover their arse if we dont exist anymore?! Find a new scapegoat?!
Maybe life is never secured in this nasty IT field. Gosh...so hard to deng... still have to deng... until the war is over, but dunno when. No I wont give up like that without a fight... I'll battle on, someday my Gandalf will save me!
Amitufuo... will keep the faith.
I'm wondering if I'm having enough of this shit, I should seriously look for another job. I guess the Bodhisvatta was great enough to know I'll always have deadlock in my career advancement, too many 'siu yan' that I cannot control. Wish I could meet more 'guai yan', I know I have... but my 'siu yan' is too powerful.
If I'd perfected my skill of corporate-politic kungfu, I wouldn't be me. I wont be the same person that I want myself to be. Honest and integrity? I doubt it truly exist in any business, not in the corporations that I know of.
I dont believe that all corporations are like that, but is so hard not to be dragged into this pitfall. I am not stupid, I work hard enough, I can talk and I ask alot of questions... but if the people on top of you want to climb out from the same pitfall, they have to step on somebody to crawl out!
I'm closing all the cases day by day every minutes, every hour... but there's no reporting tool for me to track my performance. Only my dying teamlead knows I'm such a great hand to her.
*sigh.. I so wish I was not jumping from the frying pan into the fire. But since I'm already in the fire, what can I do?
The last words before the mtg with my teamlead was 'even if we lose, atleast we know we did put up a fight for it'. My logical mind says, how can they survive without our team?! How can they screw themselves by killing off the entire operation team? Who's gonna cover their arse if we dont exist anymore?! Find a new scapegoat?!
Maybe life is never secured in this nasty IT field. Gosh...so hard to deng... still have to deng... until the war is over, but dunno when. No I wont give up like that without a fight... I'll battle on, someday my Gandalf will save me!
Amitufuo... will keep the faith.
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Urrrgghh!
breath in.... breath out....
I really have nothing to say about my work life now. It is definitely NO Life. Cannot tell how pathetic it is, maybe because I shut my brain off the moment I walk out off the office building. Talk anything but work. Just keep my prayer and do my best, so that even if I'm fired I walk tall and proud and say 'its ur lost & my gain'. :)In times of crisis lies opportunity. Wish I can shine through, wont be too hard when you're working with average people. Problem is 'the art of how to play politics'. I coined out the phrase 'make friend with your enemy!' As difficult as it seems, esp for a hardheaded girl like me, ask me to be nice to people who has ulterior motives.
Maybe the culture in other IT firm is also like this?! I feel so sorry for my teamlead, I wish I could help her, but she's my senior -- junior teach senior what to do?! Doh... If my intention is to replace her, then its like seeing how fast I die in my career. Wait, think positive! All problems are opportunities! I think that's how I'm sustaining in this shit working life. Infact, my UT trainer also preach "Objection is NOT rejection! Objection = Opportunity!"
Great... I start this blog, trying to complain about this weird girl that I befriended not long ago. Sometimes, as creepy as it seemed, I see myself in her! No wonder I call myself weird and crazy and stubborn too. Gossh... then if I'm like her, I cant imagine if I am a friend of myself -- havoc! She took the test and she's choleric phlegmatic too. Great, the most contradicting match like me. She has big dreams and thinks weird, and never bother about what other people thinks about her (that's so me). I say one thing, she say 10 things. Fine...
I dont know if the reason I've not started a war with her yet is because she's my investor-client, and I dont wanna piss her off. But I dont know how long I'm gonna take it tolerating her. She is soooooooo sure of herself, she knows what she wants and she piss me off by assuming that she knows me. Saying stuff like 'I were like you before' or 'ur tired and stressful' blah blah...
Great. Oh My God. I talk like that to other people usually, thinking I know what to tell other people (not bothered if that's what people want to hear), and having the confidence that I know myself more than you know me. Maybe its true, I'm alot like her, maybe she was like me... it just sucks to know if that's true. Cos I cant stand her, and she doesnt know it! (She will never know it since she will never take note of what other people think of her).
The difference between me and her is, not a great concern though, but its her academic result / her perception of life / patience level. I'm glad there's still differences in us that I'm relieved to know I'm not a mirror of her.
You know what stirred me to write abt her, its what she suddenly shoot in the msn when im busy working. About a publicity that involve a journalist.
WHAT?! What publicity?
She said what something start small, then join with other Buddhist centre, then with the help of the journalist, expand bigger.
EXPAND WHAT?
Then she started kutuk why I so slow to understand...
FRIEND, WHAT BIG PROJECT YOU WANT TO DO THAT INVOLVE PUBLICITY OF A JOURNALIST AND COMMUNION OF OTHER BUDDHIST CENTRE?!
Then she said I narrow minded la...
FINE! (then i kutuk her my way la.. asking if her project is youth, sports, politics or whatever related ah...)
Then she said like the Christian Fellowship.
SO HAVE YOU SPOKEN TO DATUK, BENNY, WTS AMONGST OTHERS?
Then she said start with small first, with her friend and the help of 1 journalist.
...
She was pushing me to agree with her to be involve with this CF-copycat unification of all groups crap. Havent she been to the ONE VOICE Dialogue? URrrrgghh.. feel like talking to an idiot. Maybe she's not.
If she's an idiot that I'm an idiot. Doh... Yes I must be somesort of an idiot too working with idiots in the office.
...
My teamlead : I heard Airasia seating is FCFS?! (wtf, you din know that..)
Me (trying to smile) : Yes.
TL : Haaa, then how you get your seat, you must fight with other people?
Me : No you must allow the old people and young kids to enter the plane first.
TL : But then you have to fight for your seat?
Me (breath...) : Yes, that's why my aunties have came out with a plan, which is to ask my most senior relative to get into the plane first and reserve seats for us who enter later.
You tell me sei mei?! I'm like her 'advisor' in all the workshit that she's facing, and for her to confine in when she gets stucked. BTW, she's like 34?!
Really miss my time with Ac. Teamlead jialat also smarter than me anytime (only 2 yrs my senior). Cllgs all jokers, consultant-wannabe ;) The best part, there are managers-cum-mentor around. I dont see this culture here, I couldn't think of any manager here worthy of my mentor. Dont even think about the sly SGPrean boss who wears a mask, he's damn nice to infront of me. I really wish to tell off my boss "Doh!!!".
Sigh... want to describe about the other ChiliPadi boss and how it is related to the 2-face sly boss, and my teamlead and the client-manager... bottom line is there's so many bosses internally, regionally, internationally. My team is closely related to the field services team, architecture team...
My due respect for the mother of all bosses here! Good question, difficult to answer -- who's the boss?
Why dont I just pack and go home.
I really have nothing to say about my work life now. It is definitely NO Life. Cannot tell how pathetic it is, maybe because I shut my brain off the moment I walk out off the office building. Talk anything but work. Just keep my prayer and do my best, so that even if I'm fired I walk tall and proud and say 'its ur lost & my gain'. :)In times of crisis lies opportunity. Wish I can shine through, wont be too hard when you're working with average people. Problem is 'the art of how to play politics'. I coined out the phrase 'make friend with your enemy!' As difficult as it seems, esp for a hardheaded girl like me, ask me to be nice to people who has ulterior motives.
Maybe the culture in other IT firm is also like this?! I feel so sorry for my teamlead, I wish I could help her, but she's my senior -- junior teach senior what to do?! Doh... If my intention is to replace her, then its like seeing how fast I die in my career. Wait, think positive! All problems are opportunities! I think that's how I'm sustaining in this shit working life. Infact, my UT trainer also preach "Objection is NOT rejection! Objection = Opportunity!"
Great... I start this blog, trying to complain about this weird girl that I befriended not long ago. Sometimes, as creepy as it seemed, I see myself in her! No wonder I call myself weird and crazy and stubborn too. Gossh... then if I'm like her, I cant imagine if I am a friend of myself -- havoc! She took the test and she's choleric phlegmatic too. Great, the most contradicting match like me. She has big dreams and thinks weird, and never bother about what other people thinks about her (that's so me). I say one thing, she say 10 things. Fine...
I dont know if the reason I've not started a war with her yet is because she's my investor-client, and I dont wanna piss her off. But I dont know how long I'm gonna take it tolerating her. She is soooooooo sure of herself, she knows what she wants and she piss me off by assuming that she knows me. Saying stuff like 'I were like you before' or 'ur tired and stressful' blah blah...
Great. Oh My God. I talk like that to other people usually, thinking I know what to tell other people (not bothered if that's what people want to hear), and having the confidence that I know myself more than you know me. Maybe its true, I'm alot like her, maybe she was like me... it just sucks to know if that's true. Cos I cant stand her, and she doesnt know it! (She will never know it since she will never take note of what other people think of her).
The difference between me and her is, not a great concern though, but its her academic result / her perception of life / patience level. I'm glad there's still differences in us that I'm relieved to know I'm not a mirror of her.
You know what stirred me to write abt her, its what she suddenly shoot in the msn when im busy working. About a publicity that involve a journalist.
WHAT?! What publicity?
She said what something start small, then join with other Buddhist centre, then with the help of the journalist, expand bigger.
EXPAND WHAT?
Then she started kutuk why I so slow to understand...
FRIEND, WHAT BIG PROJECT YOU WANT TO DO THAT INVOLVE PUBLICITY OF A JOURNALIST AND COMMUNION OF OTHER BUDDHIST CENTRE?!
Then she said I narrow minded la...
FINE! (then i kutuk her my way la.. asking if her project is youth, sports, politics or whatever related ah...)
Then she said like the Christian Fellowship.
SO HAVE YOU SPOKEN TO DATUK, BENNY, WTS AMONGST OTHERS?
Then she said start with small first, with her friend and the help of 1 journalist.
...
She was pushing me to agree with her to be involve with this CF-copycat unification of all groups crap. Havent she been to the ONE VOICE Dialogue? URrrrgghh.. feel like talking to an idiot. Maybe she's not.
If she's an idiot that I'm an idiot. Doh... Yes I must be somesort of an idiot too working with idiots in the office.
...
My teamlead : I heard Airasia seating is FCFS?! (wtf, you din know that..)
Me (trying to smile) : Yes.
TL : Haaa, then how you get your seat, you must fight with other people?
Me : No you must allow the old people and young kids to enter the plane first.
TL : But then you have to fight for your seat?
Me (breath...) : Yes, that's why my aunties have came out with a plan, which is to ask my most senior relative to get into the plane first and reserve seats for us who enter later.
You tell me sei mei?! I'm like her 'advisor' in all the workshit that she's facing, and for her to confine in when she gets stucked. BTW, she's like 34?!
Really miss my time with Ac. Teamlead jialat also smarter than me anytime (only 2 yrs my senior). Cllgs all jokers, consultant-wannabe ;) The best part, there are managers-cum-mentor around. I dont see this culture here, I couldn't think of any manager here worthy of my mentor. Dont even think about the sly SGPrean boss who wears a mask, he's damn nice to infront of me. I really wish to tell off my boss "Doh!!!".
Sigh... want to describe about the other ChiliPadi boss and how it is related to the 2-face sly boss, and my teamlead and the client-manager... bottom line is there's so many bosses internally, regionally, internationally. My team is closely related to the field services team, architecture team...
My due respect for the mother of all bosses here! Good question, difficult to answer -- who's the boss?
Why dont I just pack and go home.
Monday, May 29, 2006
Here, There & Everywhere
So busy, hardly could breath. Blessings to all the lost lives and suffering ones from the quake so nearby. Dont have time to read the newspaper but saw the frontpage news.
Dont feel like posting a blog now, cos I got real work to finish off by deadline tomorrow. Yet tonight I cant stay back in office, got sun sch newsletter to finalize, then send for printing.
Whole weekend gone with the wind just like that. Whole Saturday was at the WIFF making new friends and saw a cool Chinese-artsy-film that made my cry, because of the lyrics of songs / poem recited. Learned some Chinese-Buddhist-history that I never knew about, prove quite controversial to modern society.
Sunday morning went for usual round of walk, not without the worry that I might not have recovered from acute ankle pain the night before. During the heavy downpour when I was driving home (so late into the late), my right foot start aching... as I was driving in the havoc rain! Slowly peddling all my way home, safely. Rubbed some oilment... knowing I had to walk the next morning... guess what - I recovered! That was fast.
Slept a lil after that, then adjourned for a wedding dinner by the lake side, where I'll be a wedding MC!?!! whoaah.. tell my dad also he laugh. My chinese sucks... who doesn't know that! Tell my coursemate, and he suggested I record my MC-ing in Chinese, then air it on some humour-video-website.
*breaaattthhh..... shit also no time! Havent even done my writeup for the mag.
Streamyx oh streamyx, when are you coming back?!
Dont feel like posting a blog now, cos I got real work to finish off by deadline tomorrow. Yet tonight I cant stay back in office, got sun sch newsletter to finalize, then send for printing.
Whole weekend gone with the wind just like that. Whole Saturday was at the WIFF making new friends and saw a cool Chinese-artsy-film that made my cry, because of the lyrics of songs / poem recited. Learned some Chinese-Buddhist-history that I never knew about, prove quite controversial to modern society.
Sunday morning went for usual round of walk, not without the worry that I might not have recovered from acute ankle pain the night before. During the heavy downpour when I was driving home (so late into the late), my right foot start aching... as I was driving in the havoc rain! Slowly peddling all my way home, safely. Rubbed some oilment... knowing I had to walk the next morning... guess what - I recovered! That was fast.
Slept a lil after that, then adjourned for a wedding dinner by the lake side, where I'll be a wedding MC!?!! whoaah.. tell my dad also he laugh. My chinese sucks... who doesn't know that! Tell my coursemate, and he suggested I record my MC-ing in Chinese, then air it on some humour-video-website.
*breaaattthhh..... shit also no time! Havent even done my writeup for the mag.
Streamyx oh streamyx, when are you coming back?!
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