Does being self-contradictory leads people to think that I'm a hypocrite? Not that it matters to me what other people think of me, just that I dislike pretentious people so its better if I do not leave any perception that I could be one.
Many a times, I try to seek answer to why am I a choleric yet still phlegmatic at the same time? Why am I laidback, carefree and easygoing... sometimes quiet when I don't like the crowd, but on a 180 degree turn I could be extrovert, bossy and fast-moving?
How can I say 'chinchai-lah' and say ok-lah, but on the other hand, I know that there should be good standard if not the best for improvements. How can I don't care and yet care?
How can I be ESTP for one online quiz and but ENTJ on facebook quiz?
Maybe at the end of the day, I know I'd rather choose to make things happen than watch things happen.
Monday, March 24, 2008
Sunday, March 09, 2008
Makkal Sakti! The Rakyat has Risen!
Considering this is not a public blog, there's no need to report about the result and plucking commentaries from everywhere... and actually I'm speechless about this March 8 polling result, I still wish to pen down my personal story.
Friday evening, that was my last chance to attend the DAP ceramah, actually I'm quite a malas person and it was drizzling a lil, but somehow dad, me and sayang got the umbrella and head on to SS2. It was raining... I couldn't who's onstage because of the multi-colour umbrellas but I could only hear the speaker. I missed listening to Teresa Kok, but it was still worth coming out of the house to listen to Tony Pua, Gobind Singh and Haris Ibrahim.
There's this story about the Gardener and the Principal narrated by mr. Tony... funny how it didn't dawn on me earlier he was trying to refer to Chew Mei Fen playing the role of the Garderner instead of being a Principal. Anyway, everybody burst into laughter.
With this result where even Loh Gwo Burne can win... meaning you put anybody in the opposition party standing in the urban-chinese-majority seat also will win!
When they call for more volunteers for polling agent / counting agent, I went to register at the very last minute, and I didn't receive any instruction until midnight. When I turn up at 1pm-ish at Sri Aman school, the coordinator actually said all shift is taken up and I only need to be back at 4pm to standby as counting agent, since they needed 2 CA. Nah... how can they count both state and parliament at the same time? The schoolteachers-turn-SPR pengawas were actually quite blur, the KTM was also so afraid of recount, he reminded them to count slowly and accurately. I was eager to know if Tony won for that stream, so when the first few ballot votes reveal *phew... would be unbelievable if Tony do not win! This is a stream for people in their 50's and almost 80% votes went to DAP!
Even more exciting was Lau Weng San got even more votes than Tony Pua! Haiya... I'm already not serious with the counting agent role, can quickly balik rumah dah... but this pengawas was very slow... I'm like faster faster faster already know DAP win liow... half way thru counting I was smsing my dad and uncles already.
While the Singaporeans went for the Jewel of Tibet musical in Istana Budaya, I had to attend my coursemate's wedding dinner in Puchong. It was abit rude for the wedding couple as nobody really paid attention to the wedding, but the topic at the dinner table -- who won where? The phone calls, the sms that kept pouring in...
Anyway, something I'm abit annoyed with is the fact that I receive 'warning sms' about staying clear off the street, and when sayang received those messages he relayed it so boldly to fellow friends... like what happens to Kalama Sutta? Why believe in any sms received without verifying the source? Why do I feel the need to tell all the people off -- do not fear and do not spread rumour whatsoever. I understand why we should learn from history and opposition should not'celebrate' victory so as not to provoke the Malays -- DOHHHHH!
Why if they win they can celebrate and be proud, but if other ppl win must be humble and stay calm and not celebrate. Is this fair? Why they can rampantly provoke other ppl but you are advised not to provoke them. Doesn't it sound toooo childish to hear this, let alone anybody to 'suggest' this, wherever the suggestion come from.
I was in the street in Bkt Bintang KL until way past midnight, having supper with the Singapore friends. Even they are oblivious to any rumour or any protest. I guess Daryl, the Spore tourguide said it best "I think the Malaysian people are now mature..."
My new inspiring visionary hero for this country --the people's lawyer Haris Ibrahim.
Friday evening, that was my last chance to attend the DAP ceramah, actually I'm quite a malas person and it was drizzling a lil, but somehow dad, me and sayang got the umbrella and head on to SS2. It was raining... I couldn't who's onstage because of the multi-colour umbrellas but I could only hear the speaker. I missed listening to Teresa Kok, but it was still worth coming out of the house to listen to Tony Pua, Gobind Singh and Haris Ibrahim.
There's this story about the Gardener and the Principal narrated by mr. Tony... funny how it didn't dawn on me earlier he was trying to refer to Chew Mei Fen playing the role of the Garderner instead of being a Principal. Anyway, everybody burst into laughter.
With this result where even Loh Gwo Burne can win... meaning you put anybody in the opposition party standing in the urban-chinese-majority seat also will win!
When they call for more volunteers for polling agent / counting agent, I went to register at the very last minute, and I didn't receive any instruction until midnight. When I turn up at 1pm-ish at Sri Aman school, the coordinator actually said all shift is taken up and I only need to be back at 4pm to standby as counting agent, since they needed 2 CA. Nah... how can they count both state and parliament at the same time? The schoolteachers-turn-SPR pengawas were actually quite blur, the KTM was also so afraid of recount, he reminded them to count slowly and accurately. I was eager to know if Tony won for that stream, so when the first few ballot votes reveal *phew... would be unbelievable if Tony do not win! This is a stream for people in their 50's and almost 80% votes went to DAP!
Even more exciting was Lau Weng San got even more votes than Tony Pua! Haiya... I'm already not serious with the counting agent role, can quickly balik rumah dah... but this pengawas was very slow... I'm like faster faster faster already know DAP win liow... half way thru counting I was smsing my dad and uncles already.
While the Singaporeans went for the Jewel of Tibet musical in Istana Budaya, I had to attend my coursemate's wedding dinner in Puchong. It was abit rude for the wedding couple as nobody really paid attention to the wedding, but the topic at the dinner table -- who won where? The phone calls, the sms that kept pouring in...
Anyway, something I'm abit annoyed with is the fact that I receive 'warning sms' about staying clear off the street, and when sayang received those messages he relayed it so boldly to fellow friends... like what happens to Kalama Sutta? Why believe in any sms received without verifying the source? Why do I feel the need to tell all the people off -- do not fear and do not spread rumour whatsoever. I understand why we should learn from history and opposition should not'celebrate' victory so as not to provoke the Malays -- DOHHHHH!
Why if they win they can celebrate and be proud, but if other ppl win must be humble and stay calm and not celebrate. Is this fair? Why they can rampantly provoke other ppl but you are advised not to provoke them. Doesn't it sound toooo childish to hear this, let alone anybody to 'suggest' this, wherever the suggestion come from.
I was in the street in Bkt Bintang KL until way past midnight, having supper with the Singapore friends. Even they are oblivious to any rumour or any protest. I guess Daryl, the Spore tourguide said it best "I think the Malaysian people are now mature..."
My new inspiring visionary hero for this country --the people's lawyer Haris Ibrahim.
Thursday, March 06, 2008
My funny cousin
She's almost 10. Out of all my cousins, she and her siblings are the chinesey cousins (word coined by my englishy cousin).
I telephoned her house to look for her mom...
"Hello, can I speak to QSI?"
"QSI no in the house! You is who?"
"I just want to speak to QSI..."
"QSI no in the house! I know you is who... you is Joon jie jie!"
~*~
I telephoned her house to look for her mom...
"Hello, can I speak to QSI?"
"QSI no in the house! You is who?"
"I just want to speak to QSI..."
"QSI no in the house! I know you is who... you is Joon jie jie!"
~*~
I love my Mulu trip alot...
[warning] probably wont finish writing this in one sitting its gonna be 1am and im sleepy already... brrr.. maybe i shall just use the fotopages to explain all the pictures and story behind it.. rather than using lotsa words to describe...
Maybe I could just give rating ::
Miri - 5.8/10
Mulu - 10/10
Brunei - 1/10
For sayang he said ::
Miri - 5.8/10
Mulu - 7/10
Brunei - 7/10
And then i go WHAT?!? Brunei so high score?! Ok the only reason why I gave in to the idea of even going to Brunei is because sayang wanted to go 'just because' and because we have a driver who so willing to drive us into Brunei for a day trip and back! Its like driving to Melaka for the day and come back. Ok I'm not really a car person... not a mosque person... not really a 'just because' person... so I was not so excited abt Brunei...
BUT I'm so so so so overwhelmed with the caves in Mulu - world heritage site. I wouldn't go again because of all the tiring walks... but it was worth experiencing it once in a life time. The Garden of Eden was OH-MI-GGGGGG! The experience talking to the Penan guide abt my age was interesting. The meetup with an MPO cellist on the same trip was fun! The longboat journey was exciting (remind me of my white water rafting the week before). The beauty of Sarawak rainforest & nature -- breathtaking.
In total we walked for more than 20KM in 1.5 days! The millions of bats fly-swirling in snakey formation in the twillight sky -- so unique!
What was there in Brunei that was worth shouting for? Like errr.... non. Oh well maybe 'yay we found a Seng Gong temple in the heard of Bdr Seri Begawan!' hahaha. (ok sayang have this great affinity with Seng Gong *respect respect*). Of all the chinese or buddhist temple in BSB, there was only one, and its not exactly Buddhist temple its Seng Gong temple!
Miri -- the best shout out -- AYSL -- my sun sch buddy. She's the reason of Miri. Miri wouldn't be Miri without AYSL! We were given nickname "Mulu maid" by her... because we helped her to clean her teacher-quarters-flat while she was teaching in school (after we came back from Mulu). So she's the madam, we're the Mulu maids... mam brought us around the whole town, virtually visiting every chinesey-buddhisty places. Best of all trying all the Miri-only makan! I think AYSL is already transformed into a Sarawakian from the way she speak her Malay!
So that's about the round up of my amazing Miri-Mulu-Brunei trip ;) Anybody who knows AYSL should go visit her before she gets transferred back to peninsula!
Maybe I could just give rating ::
Miri - 5.8/10
Mulu - 10/10
Brunei - 1/10
For sayang he said ::
Miri - 5.8/10
Mulu - 7/10
Brunei - 7/10
And then i go WHAT?!? Brunei so high score?! Ok the only reason why I gave in to the idea of even going to Brunei is because sayang wanted to go 'just because' and because we have a driver who so willing to drive us into Brunei for a day trip and back! Its like driving to Melaka for the day and come back. Ok I'm not really a car person... not a mosque person... not really a 'just because' person... so I was not so excited abt Brunei...
BUT I'm so so so so overwhelmed with the caves in Mulu - world heritage site. I wouldn't go again because of all the tiring walks... but it was worth experiencing it once in a life time. The Garden of Eden was OH-MI-GGGGGG! The experience talking to the Penan guide abt my age was interesting. The meetup with an MPO cellist on the same trip was fun! The longboat journey was exciting (remind me of my white water rafting the week before). The beauty of Sarawak rainforest & nature -- breathtaking.
In total we walked for more than 20KM in 1.5 days! The millions of bats fly-swirling in snakey formation in the twillight sky -- so unique!
What was there in Brunei that was worth shouting for? Like errr.... non. Oh well maybe 'yay we found a Seng Gong temple in the heard of Bdr Seri Begawan!' hahaha. (ok sayang have this great affinity with Seng Gong *respect respect*). Of all the chinese or buddhist temple in BSB, there was only one, and its not exactly Buddhist temple its Seng Gong temple!
Miri -- the best shout out -- AYSL -- my sun sch buddy. She's the reason of Miri. Miri wouldn't be Miri without AYSL! We were given nickname "Mulu maid" by her... because we helped her to clean her teacher-quarters-flat while she was teaching in school (after we came back from Mulu). So she's the madam, we're the Mulu maids... mam brought us around the whole town, virtually visiting every chinesey-buddhisty places. Best of all trying all the Miri-only makan! I think AYSL is already transformed into a Sarawakian from the way she speak her Malay!
So that's about the round up of my amazing Miri-Mulu-Brunei trip ;) Anybody who knows AYSL should go visit her before she gets transferred back to peninsula!
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
By this time...
I get aggravated when people start talking politics with me, when people don't seem to understand why they shouldn't vote for the charming cute CMF. Can make my heartbeat so fast and fuming inside.
Maybe a big part of my problem is when I don't see the point from the other side. I don't see why would anyone join MCA or support MCA (unless they're being forced to like my uncle). My uncle is MCA life member only because he's being forced to by his former boss. How about people who's not being forced to join MCA? I was brainwashed by my family since I was born, to deny the ruling party the 2/3 majority. So I could never understand why support MCA? So TAR college is a big deal? Why should there be a need to have a 'chinese' college / uni if there's so many public uni?
What kinda world is my country living, if I have to give to the 'law' that is ammended to suit the likings of certain kind? I've always thought that my parents are quite poor (there's no way I get to go overseas or private college after form5) but I know of my Malay friend in school who is richer than me, who get to enter straight to UM right after form5?!! Err... I thought we got almost the same result... how can I remain genuine friends with her without feeling the pinch? Why is my beloved country pinching me?
I hate it when things are unfair... I heard it so many times, that life IS unfair. I'm not going to Karma here, becos I don't understand why Dhamma speakers never touch on politics. Do monks vote? Is it right to vote for a party which is known to be corrupted? Does it result in bad karma? I believe Karma is still at work in the development of this country as a whole, when we see the growth (or slow growth) of this country as compared to the rich natural resources that we boast to have. What we learn in geography in school, all the timber, oil, rainforest, nature, people, sunshine, peace... why is my country ringgit currency depreciating against the Sing dollar? We have relatives in Singapore island, why are they super smart and we're dumber? Why must the smart ones take up ASEAN scholarship and go to Spore and then settle down there?
I can relate to many many opposition politicans from either the DAP or PKR or even watchdogs... but why are there so many people who voted against the Barisan-Rakyat (before)?
I wish RPK or Haris Ibrahim can become the Prime Minister, Fong Po Kuan become the deputy PM. Tony Pua become Minister of Education. Jeff Ooi become Minister of Energy, Communications and Multimedia. Anwar become errr... Minister of Finance? LKS should learn to relax and enjoy the fruition of his great cause, or made Tun Tan Sri LKS.
~*~
On another note... I had a weird argument with my one of a kind brother. He didn't register to vote, but he's feeling the hype of the election, so in order to 'do this part'.. he decided to culik all the email contacts (including that of all from my addressbook) and spam everyone a youtube link abt a Buddhist temple demolition with a grammatically wrong comment coined by himself. I don't know if its being sent already... talking to my bro is like chicken and duck talk. He think he's doing it right by spreading the word around to as many people as possible (by grabbing every and any email addresses he could grab without filtering)... I found Thai friend's email... i found my ex-cllg email... like wtf?! What are you doing bro?! What if you're sending stuff to my boss who's probably not Buddhist and urrrgsssgh... my bro replied "so? you're so scared? what are you scared of? this is how we can spread the words to as many people as possible! What are you scared of?"
$%#$&%*$#^$%@~!@#$*^ without my knowledge you're spamming all the people who know me?! And you call this "doing something big to support the opposition party"?
Yes was his blunt reply... he said "you don't know me, if I want to do something, I will do it as big as I can... I can even print this out and give it to all the people...."
I give up... He lives in the I-believe-I-know-I-can-Amway world, I come from another planet. I'm still disappointed I couldn't get my own bro to register to vote, and my bro shooting me back for 'being so scared' to spam all my friends video link that my dad showed him. (aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Oh well... I live in a world with people come from all perspective. People who I'll never understand, and people who'll not understand what I'm trying to say.
Quote sayang "let go...."
Maybe a big part of my problem is when I don't see the point from the other side. I don't see why would anyone join MCA or support MCA (unless they're being forced to like my uncle). My uncle is MCA life member only because he's being forced to by his former boss. How about people who's not being forced to join MCA? I was brainwashed by my family since I was born, to deny the ruling party the 2/3 majority. So I could never understand why support MCA? So TAR college is a big deal? Why should there be a need to have a 'chinese' college / uni if there's so many public uni?
What kinda world is my country living, if I have to give to the 'law' that is ammended to suit the likings of certain kind? I've always thought that my parents are quite poor (there's no way I get to go overseas or private college after form5) but I know of my Malay friend in school who is richer than me, who get to enter straight to UM right after form5?!! Err... I thought we got almost the same result... how can I remain genuine friends with her without feeling the pinch? Why is my beloved country pinching me?
I hate it when things are unfair... I heard it so many times, that life IS unfair. I'm not going to Karma here, becos I don't understand why Dhamma speakers never touch on politics. Do monks vote? Is it right to vote for a party which is known to be corrupted? Does it result in bad karma? I believe Karma is still at work in the development of this country as a whole, when we see the growth (or slow growth) of this country as compared to the rich natural resources that we boast to have. What we learn in geography in school, all the timber, oil, rainforest, nature, people, sunshine, peace... why is my country ringgit currency depreciating against the Sing dollar? We have relatives in Singapore island, why are they super smart and we're dumber? Why must the smart ones take up ASEAN scholarship and go to Spore and then settle down there?
I can relate to many many opposition politicans from either the DAP or PKR or even watchdogs... but why are there so many people who voted against the Barisan-Rakyat (before)?
I wish RPK or Haris Ibrahim can become the Prime Minister, Fong Po Kuan become the deputy PM. Tony Pua become Minister of Education. Jeff Ooi become Minister of Energy, Communications and Multimedia. Anwar become errr... Minister of Finance? LKS should learn to relax and enjoy the fruition of his great cause, or made Tun Tan Sri LKS.
~*~
On another note... I had a weird argument with my one of a kind brother. He didn't register to vote, but he's feeling the hype of the election, so in order to 'do this part'.. he decided to culik all the email contacts (including that of all from my addressbook) and spam everyone a youtube link abt a Buddhist temple demolition with a grammatically wrong comment coined by himself. I don't know if its being sent already... talking to my bro is like chicken and duck talk. He think he's doing it right by spreading the word around to as many people as possible (by grabbing every and any email addresses he could grab without filtering)... I found Thai friend's email... i found my ex-cllg email... like wtf?! What are you doing bro?! What if you're sending stuff to my boss who's probably not Buddhist and urrrgsssgh... my bro replied "so? you're so scared? what are you scared of? this is how we can spread the words to as many people as possible! What are you scared of?"
$%#$&%*$#^$%@~!@#$*^ without my knowledge you're spamming all the people who know me?! And you call this "doing something big to support the opposition party"?
Yes was his blunt reply... he said "you don't know me, if I want to do something, I will do it as big as I can... I can even print this out and give it to all the people...."
I give up... He lives in the I-believe-I-know-I-can-Amway world, I come from another planet. I'm still disappointed I couldn't get my own bro to register to vote, and my bro shooting me back for 'being so scared' to spam all my friends video link that my dad showed him. (aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Oh well... I live in a world with people come from all perspective. People who I'll never understand, and people who'll not understand what I'm trying to say.
Quote sayang "let go...."
Friday, February 15, 2008
Random Ramble
So many things that I have thoughts on and no time to blog. Well basically its not so worthy of my time blog about it. Unlike serial bloggers, I really wonder how they devote their time and effort to update their blog, to entertain the readers!
I wanted to write about politics, since election is just around the corner, this time I'm even more aware of what help is needed and how the whole process goes. If only people could just observe the difference btwn America' election campaign vs that of Malaysia's 13-days campaign period. If only all Malaysians can stand up and think for your own good self --do you like your boss to lie so blatantly in your face?
At work maybe we don't have the choice but to bear with, but for the leadership of your country, you have the choice to make your voice heard :: No I don't like you! No this is not what I want! No you could be better!
Life is becoming quite bits and pieces, here and there for me. I don't get angry at work so much, don't care if they suck at increment & bonus payoff, I don't care if I'm performing at work or not!
Somehow maybe having a so-called boyfriend made me feel more appreciative of life, like so what I've got a lousy career at the end of the day or week or month, I have a wonderful boyfriend! *though it feels weird having to say that out loud* Cos there are friends who are single and probably won't feel nice reading my ramblings. But what I know is I didn't ask for it (the part abt having wonderful boyfriend), I don't care if it'll last a lifetime but if it did for sure I'll be truly deeply thankful.
Why can't I be thankful I still have a job, a boring job at that. It's not that I'm going no where, I just couldn't careless about finding a new job! It's like I'm afraid if I have a new job, I cannot predict when I can take leave to accomodate my travel plans or I'd know for sure I could take leave for camp. I dread to think how my mom have to survive without a car to use if I started to use the car daily.
I'm couldn't imagine if I have to go to a company that's >1hr drive away from home during peak hour. It like I don't want my life to revolve around my work, but I want everything else to revolve round me! Have you heard the phrase before -- "you are the centre of your life!"
Yeah yeah... if I'm so happy freely centering on self, why haven't I got into any serious exercise regime to shake off those flabby arms and bulging tummy?! I think I really like yoga exercise, just calm and relaxing... but I've stopped after only coupla months. And then?! *gym never crosses my mind* I have a stupid wish that the public swimming pool is located right behind my backyard.
Swimming pool! I was considering that if I were to get a property of my mine, an apartment with swimmin pool would be nice ;) But boyfriend say -- have to go for landed property la. And my mom would be happier if I decided on landed property cos she don't agree with 'maintenance fee'. So anyway, on the property front, not much progress. Its like my life attitude -- I don't care.
What if I really have a short life, like I'm going to die suddenly, not out of car crash, but most probably heart attack. I have skipped my 6-month once periodical thyroid function medical check up -- because Putrajaya Hospital is SO FAR away.
*I lost my thought*
At one point in time, I wanted to blog about Saruman and a mini story about Gandalf (that I never get to meet ever again suddenly when she disappeared from the temple). But I forgot what was it about Saruman that I wanted to say.. I know its not something good, but it was pointless. Like there is no hope for 'reformasi', the BN will always win at the end of the day.
*back to my job*
Teamlead said maybe my switchover will be delayed or not happening because of blahblahbullshit. Suddenly it dawned on me -- kuanyin was right -- my siuyan is always there. I have one little opportunity, but something stupid came up and its not my fault and I couldn't make it. Its like when the Acn boss say "its not that we don't want you, we didn't get the contract so you're not getting converted".
How many times have we felt like "life isn't fair", I have my days of life-isn't-fair at times but generally I still have a positive outlook of people and humanity.
*OH YAAAA!!!*
I tried so fast to recall what was THAT that I thought was worthy to pen down -- my christian grandaunty. How 'annoying'. During CNY our family visited her (since she's staying so near and she's still alive, she's my dad's 6th uncle's wife), I call her lao-sim. So my own uncle and his wife are still not talking to each other after years of seperation, but reunion dinner the whole family including the wife came to join us! It was such a blessing, the son after missing out for the last 2-3 reunion dinner with us actually came to makan! But the mom sat across the table not beside the children nor the dad (my uncle).
So being human, people are naturally kaypoh about other ppl's family, so christian grandaunty said "too bad they don't believe in Christ / God, if not the Lord could have helped them to be together".
Whattttt??!! Me and dad were gawking at each other over her remark. A few times she'd reference to "God"... omigawd. When we commented that she looks really healthy even at old age, she said "because I pray to God, you see that's why!"
Sometimes CNY visits can be really boring... but that's my family tradition, it will never go away, esp with the "got come got go".
3.30am ~ time for bed.
I wanted to write about politics, since election is just around the corner, this time I'm even more aware of what help is needed and how the whole process goes. If only people could just observe the difference btwn America' election campaign vs that of Malaysia's 13-days campaign period. If only all Malaysians can stand up and think for your own good self --do you like your boss to lie so blatantly in your face?
At work maybe we don't have the choice but to bear with, but for the leadership of your country, you have the choice to make your voice heard :: No I don't like you! No this is not what I want! No you could be better!
Life is becoming quite bits and pieces, here and there for me. I don't get angry at work so much, don't care if they suck at increment & bonus payoff, I don't care if I'm performing at work or not!
Somehow maybe having a so-called boyfriend made me feel more appreciative of life, like so what I've got a lousy career at the end of the day or week or month, I have a wonderful boyfriend! *though it feels weird having to say that out loud* Cos there are friends who are single and probably won't feel nice reading my ramblings. But what I know is I didn't ask for it (the part abt having wonderful boyfriend), I don't care if it'll last a lifetime but if it did for sure I'll be truly deeply thankful.
Why can't I be thankful I still have a job, a boring job at that. It's not that I'm going no where, I just couldn't careless about finding a new job! It's like I'm afraid if I have a new job, I cannot predict when I can take leave to accomodate my travel plans or I'd know for sure I could take leave for camp. I dread to think how my mom have to survive without a car to use if I started to use the car daily.
I'm couldn't imagine if I have to go to a company that's >1hr drive away from home during peak hour. It like I don't want my life to revolve around my work, but I want everything else to revolve round me! Have you heard the phrase before -- "you are the centre of your life!"
Yeah yeah... if I'm so happy freely centering on self, why haven't I got into any serious exercise regime to shake off those flabby arms and bulging tummy?! I think I really like yoga exercise, just calm and relaxing... but I've stopped after only coupla months. And then?! *gym never crosses my mind* I have a stupid wish that the public swimming pool is located right behind my backyard.
Swimming pool! I was considering that if I were to get a property of my mine, an apartment with swimmin pool would be nice ;) But boyfriend say -- have to go for landed property la. And my mom would be happier if I decided on landed property cos she don't agree with 'maintenance fee'. So anyway, on the property front, not much progress. Its like my life attitude -- I don't care.
What if I really have a short life, like I'm going to die suddenly, not out of car crash, but most probably heart attack. I have skipped my 6-month once periodical thyroid function medical check up -- because Putrajaya Hospital is SO FAR away.
*I lost my thought*
At one point in time, I wanted to blog about Saruman and a mini story about Gandalf (that I never get to meet ever again suddenly when she disappeared from the temple). But I forgot what was it about Saruman that I wanted to say.. I know its not something good, but it was pointless. Like there is no hope for 'reformasi', the BN will always win at the end of the day.
*back to my job*
Teamlead said maybe my switchover will be delayed or not happening because of blahblahbullshit. Suddenly it dawned on me -- kuanyin was right -- my siuyan is always there. I have one little opportunity, but something stupid came up and its not my fault and I couldn't make it. Its like when the Acn boss say "its not that we don't want you, we didn't get the contract so you're not getting converted".
How many times have we felt like "life isn't fair", I have my days of life-isn't-fair at times but generally I still have a positive outlook of people and humanity.
*OH YAAAA!!!*
I tried so fast to recall what was THAT that I thought was worthy to pen down -- my christian grandaunty. How 'annoying'. During CNY our family visited her (since she's staying so near and she's still alive, she's my dad's 6th uncle's wife), I call her lao-sim. So my own uncle and his wife are still not talking to each other after years of seperation, but reunion dinner the whole family including the wife came to join us! It was such a blessing, the son after missing out for the last 2-3 reunion dinner with us actually came to makan! But the mom sat across the table not beside the children nor the dad (my uncle).
So being human, people are naturally kaypoh about other ppl's family, so christian grandaunty said "too bad they don't believe in Christ / God, if not the Lord could have helped them to be together".
Whattttt??!! Me and dad were gawking at each other over her remark. A few times she'd reference to "God"... omigawd. When we commented that she looks really healthy even at old age, she said "because I pray to God, you see that's why!"
Sometimes CNY visits can be really boring... but that's my family tradition, it will never go away, esp with the "got come got go".
3.30am ~ time for bed.
Friday, February 01, 2008
Why do I have 'no heart'?
Putting a blog title like that is not fun. I've been wondering about myself this morning, about why do I not act more 'giving' and naturally put a few dollar notes (no matter how small the amount) into the donation box in temples? Say my bf, he's not richer than me and doesn't have much $ but whenever we go to temple (chinese or taoist or buddhist) shrines, after paying homage, it just come automatically for him to grab his wallet & dig out small notes & insert it into the donation box.
Just yesterday, my indon colleague have passed me alot of cash he's collected (from his savings) to be donated to a temple building fund, and made sure that I got his parents name correct so that his parents name can appear in the temple building. I have never ever had this thought, to donate money to a temple and put my parents name on it. He hoped that I can be part of his act of"planting seeds on good soil".
I ask myself - why am I so not generous? I think maybe its a habit, if I start to do it, then gradually it becomes easy... Then I come to think of my monthly income expenditure allocation, how many % should go to charity / temples? I felt I must be one self-centred person for all the money I earn, either I spend it or invest it or save up for near future use.
Maybe I give in other form like 'service', like volunteering for sunday school, helping out to organise Buddhist youth activities, or even buying gifts for my cousins... I buy! When there's a Mattel warehouse sale, I bought huge barbiedoll sets for my little cousin sis, they've never got that before from their folks. When my bf go buy dried meat from his friend shop (wing heong), I ask around my friends see who wanna tumpang to buy, so that my friends could get discount and don't need to travel afar to buy it.
I probably do give but very rarely in dollar notes, which I feel very 'attached' to. I count money, I keep money in my bank account, and ultimately I spend money. Its like my personal belonging, that I don't simply give it away just like that...
So anyway, the part about me feeing 'heartless' is when I saw a distressed man bleeding from his head and a poor woman, both on the motorbike, who came near us (my teamlead, my blur cllg & me) asking for money to send the injured man to the nearby clinic. The man was robbed and knocked down and bleeding away, the woman not injured and riding the bike with helmet looking sorrowful explaining their ordeal to us...
The thing is, although I was shocked to see the man sobbing and bleeding away, I SUSPECTED them to be cheaters! I had no qualms about my suspicion. I stood there listening to how the conversation went, I didn't utter a word to 'test' them or offer any concern. My 2 female cllg immediately took out their wallet, the blur girl knew she only had a RM50 note and she took it out so quickly and said "I don't have small change, this is all I have..." Then my teamlead took out RM30 and then... somehow (in my mind I thought the RM30 goes back to blur girl so that the one piece of RM50 could be given to them) they gave all RM80 to them.
I just stood there. I didn't chip in. Still having a very doh face.
At one point, I think the woman said they'd return the money to us, just give her our phone number. Hmmm... that's not begging alright... she'll return the money later. But the blur girl would have to sacrify her phone number to the stranger. They ask for a pen, and I took out my pen and paper... instead of blur girl writing her mobile number on it, guts feeling told me to stop her... and we took down the woman's number instead. *like as if we're going to call her back for the rm80*
The 2 of my cllg really felt so worried for them... even after they left, my teamlead was holding her head trying to understand what happened to that man bleeding and broke his thumb...
You know WHAT? He actually "showed" his 'broken' thumb which was weird looking, all I thought was "are you sure that's really broken, where's the cut?" My 2 cllg went 'yerrrrr....'
Gossshhh... I am sooo "no-heart". All that my mind could think off was trying to outwit them and so much questions popped in my head, I don't wish to speak to my cllg about it. I am cynical!
I don't trust anyone. I was once told off by a good friend that I should learn to trust people. Even leadership camp / workshop taught me about "trust" but just like parting with my money... it doesn't come easily. It just doesn't appear in what is me!
IF the man was seriously injured, he should straight go to the clinic to get his wound stitched and it wont cost much, probably not even RM50... helllo?! I fell off a moving motorbike before and got wound at my leg and bleeding too... ok so maybe I went to "pusat kesihatan" in uni where its foc. STILL?! How expensive would a private clinic charge you for cleaning up your wound and give a few stitches?! Any doctor would help you for free if they know you've lost your wallet and got injured from a robbery! Tell me WHAT STUPID LOGIC IS THIS?! That the bleeding man could be crying with such sorrow like he'd lost his family at a tragic accident - HELLLO??! I didn't CRY when I injured myself? My grandma didn't cry when she was robbed in daylight...
WHAT STUPID CON MAN IS THIS! IF he's in such PAIN why WASTE TIME trying to get money from innocent ladies in the middle of the quiet street.. and NOT to the clinic FIRST?!
I had so many questions... I wanted to hold his hand and twist it and see what reaction he has. I wanted to know where was the exact spot of robbery. Why is your motorbike unscratched? Why was the woman not injured? What kinda man get rob instead of the woman? Gosssh......
And my 2 cllg just naturally gave money away like that?!?? And the blur girl had ONLY the last piece of note in her wallet?! I wanted to ask my cllg - why? How come it didn't occur to you that they're conmen? Well... later my teamlead did ask herself alot of why... which she couldn't answer and she said nevermind if they're actually not for real...
Why am I so not instintively helpful with digging out my wallet from my handbag?!
*partly I know there's alot of big notes I had inside, remember indon cllg donation*
So anyway, if you're a good analyzer... maybe you can comment and tell me what would you be thinking and doing at the same time, when you encounter such weird situation like what I've seen today.
Just yesterday, my indon colleague have passed me alot of cash he's collected (from his savings) to be donated to a temple building fund, and made sure that I got his parents name correct so that his parents name can appear in the temple building. I have never ever had this thought, to donate money to a temple and put my parents name on it. He hoped that I can be part of his act of"planting seeds on good soil".
I ask myself - why am I so not generous? I think maybe its a habit, if I start to do it, then gradually it becomes easy... Then I come to think of my monthly income expenditure allocation, how many % should go to charity / temples? I felt I must be one self-centred person for all the money I earn, either I spend it or invest it or save up for near future use.
Maybe I give in other form like 'service', like volunteering for sunday school, helping out to organise Buddhist youth activities, or even buying gifts for my cousins... I buy! When there's a Mattel warehouse sale, I bought huge barbiedoll sets for my little cousin sis, they've never got that before from their folks. When my bf go buy dried meat from his friend shop (wing heong), I ask around my friends see who wanna tumpang to buy, so that my friends could get discount and don't need to travel afar to buy it.
I probably do give but very rarely in dollar notes, which I feel very 'attached' to. I count money, I keep money in my bank account, and ultimately I spend money. Its like my personal belonging, that I don't simply give it away just like that...
So anyway, the part about me feeing 'heartless' is when I saw a distressed man bleeding from his head and a poor woman, both on the motorbike, who came near us (my teamlead, my blur cllg & me) asking for money to send the injured man to the nearby clinic. The man was robbed and knocked down and bleeding away, the woman not injured and riding the bike with helmet looking sorrowful explaining their ordeal to us...
The thing is, although I was shocked to see the man sobbing and bleeding away, I SUSPECTED them to be cheaters! I had no qualms about my suspicion. I stood there listening to how the conversation went, I didn't utter a word to 'test' them or offer any concern. My 2 female cllg immediately took out their wallet, the blur girl knew she only had a RM50 note and she took it out so quickly and said "I don't have small change, this is all I have..." Then my teamlead took out RM30 and then... somehow (in my mind I thought the RM30 goes back to blur girl so that the one piece of RM50 could be given to them) they gave all RM80 to them.
I just stood there. I didn't chip in. Still having a very doh face.
At one point, I think the woman said they'd return the money to us, just give her our phone number. Hmmm... that's not begging alright... she'll return the money later. But the blur girl would have to sacrify her phone number to the stranger. They ask for a pen, and I took out my pen and paper... instead of blur girl writing her mobile number on it, guts feeling told me to stop her... and we took down the woman's number instead. *like as if we're going to call her back for the rm80*
The 2 of my cllg really felt so worried for them... even after they left, my teamlead was holding her head trying to understand what happened to that man bleeding and broke his thumb...
You know WHAT? He actually "showed" his 'broken' thumb which was weird looking, all I thought was "are you sure that's really broken, where's the cut?" My 2 cllg went 'yerrrrr....'
Gossshhh... I am sooo "no-heart". All that my mind could think off was trying to outwit them and so much questions popped in my head, I don't wish to speak to my cllg about it. I am cynical!
I don't trust anyone. I was once told off by a good friend that I should learn to trust people. Even leadership camp / workshop taught me about "trust" but just like parting with my money... it doesn't come easily. It just doesn't appear in what is me!
IF the man was seriously injured, he should straight go to the clinic to get his wound stitched and it wont cost much, probably not even RM50... helllo?! I fell off a moving motorbike before and got wound at my leg and bleeding too... ok so maybe I went to "pusat kesihatan" in uni where its foc. STILL?! How expensive would a private clinic charge you for cleaning up your wound and give a few stitches?! Any doctor would help you for free if they know you've lost your wallet and got injured from a robbery! Tell me WHAT STUPID LOGIC IS THIS?! That the bleeding man could be crying with such sorrow like he'd lost his family at a tragic accident - HELLLO??! I didn't CRY when I injured myself? My grandma didn't cry when she was robbed in daylight...
WHAT STUPID CON MAN IS THIS! IF he's in such PAIN why WASTE TIME trying to get money from innocent ladies in the middle of the quiet street.. and NOT to the clinic FIRST?!
I had so many questions... I wanted to hold his hand and twist it and see what reaction he has. I wanted to know where was the exact spot of robbery. Why is your motorbike unscratched? Why was the woman not injured? What kinda man get rob instead of the woman? Gosssh......
And my 2 cllg just naturally gave money away like that?!?? And the blur girl had ONLY the last piece of note in her wallet?! I wanted to ask my cllg - why? How come it didn't occur to you that they're conmen? Well... later my teamlead did ask herself alot of why... which she couldn't answer and she said nevermind if they're actually not for real...
Why am I so not instintively helpful with digging out my wallet from my handbag?!
*partly I know there's alot of big notes I had inside, remember indon cllg donation*
So anyway, if you're a good analyzer... maybe you can comment and tell me what would you be thinking and doing at the same time, when you encounter such weird situation like what I've seen today.
Thursday, January 24, 2008
2nd post for the new year
Seems like my post is once or twice a month! That don't mean there were no thoughts in my head to write... many a times, I thought of something to blog about... then few days later, I totally forgot what I'd wanted to blog about!
I was telling myself, if my brain was a CPU ::
-my local harddisc is 40GB with about 5% available disc space left.
-my RAM would be 1GB for running so many thoughts and multitasking.
-my processor speed could be Pentium 1.5Ghz.
Blah... meaning after I waking up from my sleep, I forget what the brain was processing about... hence I must remember to WRITE down... must write it down.
For this new year, I went for my first interview 'of the sort' for transfer from one account to another, because the other account is failing in the "process" part of deployment and they need someone with operational experience. My teamlead recommended me because I'm more 'operation' where as T is more 'technical'. I'm not sure if I should be happy or not because the new account is currently in the infant stage of all these outsourcing processes... and I feel like it sounds like my new jd would be more consulting based than mundane operation / incident remediation.
After having attended the ITIL training, I learnt to see the bigger picture of ALL the IT services management processes. And in my potential new role, I only need to document the end-to-end process for ONE of the process -- release & deployment process.
The challenge is really not the job, I've been thrown into the deep sea by my former company's stupidest jerk boss to develope ALL the process from start to end, that probably covers all 20 processes by ITIL v3 standard. Blahh... so anyway, my teamlead concern is actually whether or not I would like to work with the leads in the new acc, who is known to be.. cocky.
Ah yes... its been a long time since I've last spoken super fast full english at work. Ok I can't speak super fast (due to my short tongue) but I am so used to rojak mix my chinese & english. The 2 guys who interviewed me, one indian who'll be my lead and one chinese bloke my age who's the manager... were trying to out-speedtalk each other the whole time. I wonder is it because they can speak very well in English that's how they got to climb up so fast. My current 30+ lady teamlead (who speak terrible english) actually hint-hint to me, that the new lead hasn't been very productive.
You know I don't like to generalize... but I tend to see the trend that the nonenglish-ed people tend to be very hardworking and quiet and productive at work, whereas english-ed people who can articulate and communicate very well tend to climb up the ladder faster although not having to produce as much hardwork.
I can be both if I want to. I can put in the effort to attend public speaking course, to learn to speak assertively with the big bosses to create more opportunity for myself... or I can also just be my phlegmatic self and not open my mouth.
So the end point is, I will challenge myself, to take on the new 'process' role, working with 2 cocky dudes, and try my best to deliver what they've failed in AND rest assured learn to get credit for that. I see it as a win-win-win situation. I will have something new & valuable to write for my resume, my own company will have the processes in placed for customer, the customer will ultimate gain from value-added IT services (translated to be cost-saving strategy). Remember :: in crisis lies opportunity!
Current teamlead stressed again that its entirely my choice, if I really want, if I really can get along with the arrogance.... I said, if I really cannot tahan after that THEN change job la! Doh...
This short episode have finally made me to update my resume! *phew* it was last updated in 2006... The prophecy wants me to update my resume and to move on from my current boring operational job!
*yawn* what a boring post... love life is good, family is great, friends are fine, health is usual, incovar is moving, apa nak blog lagi?! Aaahh... belum try meditation retreat lagi....
I was telling myself, if my brain was a CPU ::
-my local harddisc is 40GB with about 5% available disc space left.
-my RAM would be 1GB for running so many thoughts and multitasking.
-my processor speed could be Pentium 1.5Ghz.
Blah... meaning after I waking up from my sleep, I forget what the brain was processing about... hence I must remember to WRITE down... must write it down.
For this new year, I went for my first interview 'of the sort' for transfer from one account to another, because the other account is failing in the "process" part of deployment and they need someone with operational experience. My teamlead recommended me because I'm more 'operation' where as T is more 'technical'. I'm not sure if I should be happy or not because the new account is currently in the infant stage of all these outsourcing processes... and I feel like it sounds like my new jd would be more consulting based than mundane operation / incident remediation.
After having attended the ITIL training, I learnt to see the bigger picture of ALL the IT services management processes. And in my potential new role, I only need to document the end-to-end process for ONE of the process -- release & deployment process.
The challenge is really not the job, I've been thrown into the deep sea by my former company's stupidest jerk boss to develope ALL the process from start to end, that probably covers all 20 processes by ITIL v3 standard. Blahh... so anyway, my teamlead concern is actually whether or not I would like to work with the leads in the new acc, who is known to be.. cocky.
Ah yes... its been a long time since I've last spoken super fast full english at work. Ok I can't speak super fast (due to my short tongue) but I am so used to rojak mix my chinese & english. The 2 guys who interviewed me, one indian who'll be my lead and one chinese bloke my age who's the manager... were trying to out-speedtalk each other the whole time. I wonder is it because they can speak very well in English that's how they got to climb up so fast. My current 30+ lady teamlead (who speak terrible english) actually hint-hint to me, that the new lead hasn't been very productive.
You know I don't like to generalize... but I tend to see the trend that the nonenglish-ed people tend to be very hardworking and quiet and productive at work, whereas english-ed people who can articulate and communicate very well tend to climb up the ladder faster although not having to produce as much hardwork.
I can be both if I want to. I can put in the effort to attend public speaking course, to learn to speak assertively with the big bosses to create more opportunity for myself... or I can also just be my phlegmatic self and not open my mouth.
So the end point is, I will challenge myself, to take on the new 'process' role, working with 2 cocky dudes, and try my best to deliver what they've failed in AND rest assured learn to get credit for that. I see it as a win-win-win situation. I will have something new & valuable to write for my resume, my own company will have the processes in placed for customer, the customer will ultimate gain from value-added IT services (translated to be cost-saving strategy). Remember :: in crisis lies opportunity!
Current teamlead stressed again that its entirely my choice, if I really want, if I really can get along with the arrogance.... I said, if I really cannot tahan after that THEN change job la! Doh...
This short episode have finally made me to update my resume! *phew* it was last updated in 2006... The prophecy wants me to update my resume and to move on from my current boring operational job!
*yawn* what a boring post... love life is good, family is great, friends are fine, health is usual, incovar is moving, apa nak blog lagi?! Aaahh... belum try meditation retreat lagi....
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
So what 2008?
You know why I don't wanna talk about 2008? Besides having plans for many activities... on a personal level, I think I'm not ready to be 29! Because I still feel like I'm 27, sometimes when people do ask what's my age, spontaneously I'd be thinking I'm 27... but then I'll use maths to count, wait in 2007, my age would be 28! Oh gosh.... *in denial*
So don't even talk about 2008, mathematically I'll be 29 but I'm still 27. I hope I can always be 27. But I'll surely look forward to 30! Upstairs being say I'll be successful at 30 (buaahahahaha)... but even if I'm not predicted to be succesfully, I know I will be looking forward to age 30 more than being 29. Cos 29 is just the number before 30! Like I can officially say I'm 'old' when I'm 30, hence not do so much stuff and get away with it... wakakakakaz..
When I turn 30, I'll then have reason to be more concern of my health that I never care about because I'm supposed to be still young. You know like even bother to self-examine for lump in breast or do what check for what level...
When I turn 30, I'll know that I'm not young anymore, hence in my career I'll be pushing myself harder or be more proactive at work & not be so lackadaisical in updating my resume. Due to the age pressure, will want to challenge myself to be somewhere...
When I turn 30, I'll then start to wonder if I'll ever get married?
When I turn 30, I'll probably have a place of my own...
So... back to two-nine... what's there being 29? I won't get a new boyfriend at 29. I don't even know if I'll change job at 29. I've heard they say girls don't get married at 29. The world economy doesn't look so good in Q1 2008, the only 'certainty' in 2008 is the 'uncertainty' of the market. I dread to see if the funds I chose underperform and I'm answerable to my clients. They say the property bubble might burst, but then I don't even know if I should share buy property with my boyfriend? Should I join the Effective Speaking Course? Will I ever be going to Tibet? Will there be an election and can opposition win more parliamentary seats for the people's sake?
Anyway, I guess 2008 is just an extension or carry forward from 2007. Just keep snowballing the initiatives and efforts put in during 2007. If all the plans for 2008 can be pulled off successful, then 2008 will eventually end with a bang! And I'll be anticipating for the 080808 opening of the Beijing Olympics.
My hope for 2008.... that my spirit for INCOVAR and 9bugz can be sustained if not lifted to higher level... that I will meet with more wise people to mentor / guide me... that we can all successfully achieve what we've set out to acheive.... that I can continue to inspire or help people... that I'll be wiser... that the coming general election is fairer...
A toast to a wonderful 2007 that's been!
525,600 minutes - how do you measure, measure a year?
In 525,600 minutes - how do you measure a year in the life?
How about measure the year 2007 - measure in love?
Sunday, December 30, 2007
X'mas in Spore, oral surgery, Happy New Year!
When pictures paint a thousand words, I don't have to write so much. The past week has been really eventful, from missing out on the 15NOW concert just to show face at a big coconutsteamboat family reunion, to taking the bus alone from Pudu at midnight and getting down at Skudai 3am in the morning, to celebrating x'mas with sayang's family in Spore in the most Christmassy way.
X'mas eve, I used imeem to play Christmas jingles through out the night from the brother's desktop. The lights were dimmed, turkey & ham were served in most generous portion, champagne were served before and after dinner! I said, "didn't we forget to say grace?" Then everyone looked at each other... "Amituofo!"
I enjoy the company and the warm cosy feel more than the food because it was very meaty! Maybe it was the very hearty western meal for lunch, treated by myee's friend in Spore. They brought us to Miss Clarity Cafe that even have their own website! If there's one cafe here so colourful and 'girlie' I'd definitely bring my 15-year-old and 12-year-old cousin sisters! It seems every Western joint we went, there'd be Chocolaty dessert! In one short trip, I didn't have to pay for any meal at all... and get to eat what I like to eat!
What I'm most thankful for is the opportunity to visit the Nalanda Trial exhibition in the Asian Civilization Museum for free! And there was a special Buddhist guided tour by this gentleman who spoke with so 'englishy' accent but good in Chinese as well! Usually museum visit is boring to me... but this is so different! Maybe of my interest in learning Buddhist history and culture... at the room where I first saw the Buddha's relic... it just dawned on me, that's BUDDHA's RELIC?? THE BUDDHA??! (ok at this point, I thought it was the first time I saw the Buddha's relic) You know the 'rapture' feeling? Tears just trickle down... *what?! you're crying?! in public?! no no you gotta be kidding quick control!!*
I'm not sure how to explain this feeling, its like there's a strong energy or aura in the room. According to sayang, he said he could sense that there were many devas in the room! :P Anyway, moving on... we bought the souvenir book of this Nalanda Trail exhibition at $37++! Even the handbag bought at Robinson was much cheaper ler...
Alright so back to Malaysia... another xmas party with the starbugz gang on boxing day before I go on mc leave for my minor oral surgery. Gift exchange was so funny thanks to Sue's crazy idea -- you get to unwrap your gift infront of everyone and the next person gets to snatch your gift if he/she likes it! Errr... very confusing to explain to anyone. I feel sorry for snatching SF's mug... but hey it was aaron who snatched my nice porcelain tea set woh! Saved the best for last.. sayang got to unwrap the last gift (sort of least attractive present)... and aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh I want! :D Nvm surely he'll bring me along for it -- HarganDaz icecream voucher!
OK OK... now here's what I really wanna write about -- my wisdom tooth surgery. Everybody was telling me how painful it will be, and yes I've been for my first oral surgery at UPM and it was excruciatingly painful! But, I dunno if its the dentist experience or my prayer before leaving the house... the surgery was pretty smooth, the only pain was the one second anaesthetic shot and that's it! Until now, I don't feel any pain! How could this be?! Then I remember Datuk telling this to Alex Tan "you don't feel pain because you got no anger!" LOL :D
OK OK... now here's what I really wanna write about -- my wisdom tooth surgery. Everybody was telling me how painful it will be, and yes I've been for my first oral surgery at UPM and it was excruciatingly painful! But, I dunno if its the dentist experience or my prayer before leaving the house... the surgery was pretty smooth, the only pain was the one second anaesthetic shot and that's it! Until now, I don't feel any pain! How could this be?! Then I remember Datuk telling this to Alex Tan "you don't feel pain because you got no anger!" LOL :D
How true is this statement? I hope some one else can verify for me, that its the dentist or is it the prayer?
Happy New Year 2008 to all my friends! If you believe, let's pray or make your personal aspiration for the new year, and if you ask & believe *like attracts like* -- it will happen.
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